I don’t have good news, friends.
It’s been a while since my last post where I shared that I was about to go in for surgery to remove a tumor from my ovary “the size of a small watermelon”.
The surgery was…not fun, but I was relieved to have that tumor out of me, and was optimistic that my pathology results would come back benign. Recovery has been painful and challenging, but I felt better every day and was happy to put this whole thing behind me.
Unfortunately, when I went in for my follow-up appointment with my oncologist, I did not get the news I was expecting.
I’m a healthy person. I eat right. I exercise. The cashier at the grocery store frequently comments on how healthy my food choices are (a little weird, right?). Mr. Refashionista makes fun of me for the gross-looking (but healthy!) fruit and veggie smoothies I make every morning. I try to eat lots of nutritious antioxidant-rich foods. In my mind there was no way that tumor was cancer.
I was wrong. My tumor was cancerous. And it has spread to one of my lymph nodes.
I have Stage III Ovarian Cancer.
“Don’t Google it,” my doctor said. “If you do, you’re going to see a lot of doom and gloom and a lot of miracles.”
I, of course, spent twenty minutes in the oncology center parking lot in a sobbing Google doom spiral.
“stage 3 ovarian cancer mortality rate”
“mucinous stage 3 ovarian cancer survival rate”
“is ovarian cancer a death sentence”
When I think of advanced-stage cancer, I think of TV movies from the ’80s and ’90s where the nice lady gets cancer, suffers through chemotherapy, and then dies (but is an inspiration to everyone around her).
While I busied myself researching every possible terrible thing that could happen to me, Brian reached out to online Ovarian Cancer support groups to get a less Lifetime Original Movie-skewed idea of what may lay ahead.
Brian’s approach was the better one.
This has been a difficult time. We’ve both cried a lot. The thought of not surviving this and leaving everyone and everything I love behind so soon guts me way more than an 8″ incision on my abdomen did.
And Now We Wait
There’s still a lot more testing to be done on my tissue samples to find out exactly what my prognosis is and what my course of treatment will be. It’ll be more than a week before I know anything new.
Most likely, I will begin aggressive chemotherapy in a few weeks.
Yes, I’m scared.
I want to be that Inspirational TV Movie Lady with Cancer, but I don’t think any casting director would give me a callback for that role. I’m trying to be brave, but I’m just so. freaking. sad. It’s exhausting. My bones feel heavy.
The Good Things
So yes, everything is very heavy and challenging right now, but there are bright spots.
I have a wonderful and supportive husband. I have amazing friends and family whose kindness over the past few weeks have meant the world to me. I have health insurance. I’ll have the ability to work from home and generate income when I’m too immunocompromised (due to treatment) to be around people during the pandemic.
So What About this Blog?
I’ve spent a great deal of time thinking about this.
The blog continues.
I don’t know what happens next, but I’m going to keep working on this blog as long as I’m able.
My appearance is probably going to change, and I hope people will be kind about that.
Refashionista isn’t going to suddenly become a blog that’s all about cancer, although I will be sharing news and my thoughts on that front, as well as how my treatment is going. But I don’t want an illness to be what defines me.
I’ll still be refashioning thrifted duds and home goods from frump to fab (hopefully for a very very long time). There may be times when I have to take breaks, but I’ll always come back when I can.
I hate this, friends. I hate giving you one more bummer in this year of bummers. I hope you all know I will do everything I can to beat this.
Thank you for your patience and support.
My dear girl…. ….. I have no words……………. Never mind that ‘stiff upper lip’ sort of thing… you are one of us. Let loose any time you feel like it…. cry your heart out if you want, laugh if you want, get pissed if you want. We are all here for you…. Bless your heart! And please give your husband hugs from us as well. Thank goodness, you have each other.
Jillian, this was such bad news. Another fight for you to win and so many people hoping and praying for you. You go, Girl! You’re in my thoughts! Be well…
So sorry to hear that. But, I believe that you WILL beat this because you are braver than you know and stronger than you think. May the Lord bless you and keep you, May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you, May the Lord look upon you kindly and give you peace.
I have two friends who are ovarian cancer survivors. They’re still around. <3 You sill be as well.
Jillian, I Cannot imagine how difficult this diagnosis is for you and your family. Cancer SUCKS but you, my dear, are AMAZING!
I stumbled upon your post- saw one of your magnificent refashions on pinterest. I’m a Fam Med doctor so the ovarian cancer post caught my eye. The patients that do the best through all of it are the ones that trust the doctors! Do what they say! Don’t second guess everything and do your “research” on google! I have a lady right now who has had at least 5 different oncologists and won’t commit to any treatment! It has been nearly 5 months and no treatment!! Trust the doctors, keep a positive attitude, and don’t stop living your life!!
Jillian- Cancer Sucks! You kick its a*s because you are a better badass than it it! Anyone who can think of new ways to recreate fashion so often can do this. And your shoes? OMG, you’re a rockstar with all your shoes! I want you to know I have a friend who was diagnosed with stage IV ovarian cancer and was cured. She is still kicking butt 18 years later and never had recurrence of any cancer. Sending Good Karma your way❣️
Much love to you and your family.
Maybe we can take turns doing posts for u if u r not up to it. I’m not a very good seamstress but I bet there r a lot of talented people here!!
I think you are a very brave person for sharing this information. Everyone who enjoys your blog will be praying and wishing for your well being. If strangers can be friends then count me and many others yours. More than your refashions your kindness has seeped onto your pages and touched all of our hearts. We wish you much success in all that you do. Btw, love love love the cute pixie hairdo! Darlene Kelly, Kentucky
Sending you lots of good vibes and strength. Your community supports you and is praying for you.
Sending you lots of hugs, prayers and positive light .Keeping you in my prayers.
Thank you for giving me the courage to try some refashioning. Your posts make me feel brave and not feel bag if I mess something up while learning. You are such a bright light and treasure.
Hi Jillian, You mean so much to so many people. People that you have inspired and made them have a better day. You are a gift to so many. I feel like I know you. Thoughts and prayers are coming your way every day.
Praying for you!
I am so sorry to hear your news. I am a woman of faith and will be praying for your healing thru the blood of Jesus.
Hi Jill,
I’ve been a long time lurker of your blog. I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis. Sending positive thoughts your way. Thanks for sharing your life with us. We are here for you.
Sincerely,
Amy
Sending lots and lots of LOVE! So glad you have your honey and your family right there. Know that all your admirers, like me, will be sending you love and strength, too.
That is such hard news! I have been following your blog for years (so excited when you started refashioning again this year!) My 37-year-old sister also got diagnosed with stage IV cancer this summer. It is a hard journey, but you do not fight alone and I will be praying for you.
I love and I mean that everything you do and say. I only wish the best for you and and forever
I’m sending you all the love, girl. I’ve been a diehard fan of your blog for years now – of your resourcefulness, creativity, unique brand of humour and of this absolute refusal to give in whenever the going got tough. You are one amazing human being. I hope to assorted deities that you’ll get through this, too.
I’m so sorry to hear about this. I’ll be praying for you. There is a great organization called The Truth About Cancer; you should look into it when you have time. They say that “cancer is not a death sentence”. Hang in there, and have hope.
Dear Jillian,
I have been a lurker here for a long time, always in awe of your talented refashions. I’m truly sorry you have to face this terrible disease. I am hoping all the love left here in this comments will help you find hope and courage to win this fight. xx
Sending you more love everyday Jillian!
You are inspirational. Keep on keeping on. ❤️
Jillian –
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It’s the club that nobody wants to join and yet when you do you are surrounded by support – sometimes from complete strangers. Sending you a hug and prayers
My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I am a breast cancer survivor of 9 years. Mine had gone to a lymph node, too. They took out 16 from under my arm. One of the things I did was visualization. As I was receiving my chemo, I envisioned the chemo as “Little Green Army Men”. They were running through my body, attacking the cancer, no matter where the cancer tried to hide. The LGAM are on your side and fighting for you.
I told this to a friend of mine who is battling liver cancer. The doctors did chemo first to shrink the tumor. Last week, she was able to have the tumor removed from her liver. Those “Little Green Army Men” did the trick.
I know there is nothing scientific about LGAM and some may say it is silly. But it helped my friend and helped me focus the fight. And made me smile. Stay tough.
I have followed your blog for years. I check in at least once a week.
Sending love, light, and prayers. Laura M.
Thank you for your candidness. My prayers and thoughts are with you at this very trying time, but t is so like you to always look at the bright side. You have blessed us with your sewing and writing skills, and we will look forward to many more. Stay strong!
You are loved!!!
I have been following your refashioning journey for a while now, and I wanted to add my well wishes and positive vibes for your healing and eventual triumph over this cancer. Wishing you strength and love.
Jillian I know there are many comments of well wishing and blessings but I still have to add mine to the pot! I absolutely love your posts. I marvel how crafty you are. (not me I’m a clutz.) I will be praying for you, God hears prayers (at least it seems that way to me) and he is in control so be peaceful in your thoughts and heart knowing how many prayers are sent to intercede for you. Be strong and uplifted in his love for you.
Thanks for sharing Jillian! Have been following you for quite a while and I’ve always loved your stories.
Take care of yourself. We care. God bless.
I’m so sorry that this is happening to you. I hope everything will go your way.
Wishing you all the very best, dearest Jillian! You’re so talented and creative, I know you’ll bring that amazing energy to your treatment and healing process. May you be surrounded by strength and support. We’re all pulling for you.
Jillian, thank you for sharing this news with us. We are all on a journey and suffering is part of the travels. Along on that journey we use our gifts to navigate this world and to love and lift others up. Please know you are lifted. Thank you for sharing your inspirational gifts of words, thrift, fabric and sincerity. Praying those involved in your health receive wisdom and that you and yours receive peace throughout this process
Hey – I’m sending you my very best wishes to beat this.
I feel heartbroken after reading your update. Thank you for still sharing with us, even though it must be difficult to do so. We care very much about you! I am thinking of you and praying for you. Take good care of yourself and don’t be afraid to reach out to others for help!
I hope you beat the sh… out this cancer! I’m praying for you and your husband. Love Aureannie
long time reader/follower – first time commenter. So sorry to hear of you diagnosis. You have been on my mind since your “Clyde” post. So glad to hear from you again – although not the news you or any of your followers wanted to hear. You have been an inspiration to so many. Your happy personality will help you. Always look on the good side of a situation – however hard it may be. And let all of your followers shower you with good vibes and prayers
I only found your website a few months ago but I love your commentary and your projects. I feel like I know you. I will be thinking of you and wishing you and your family the best.
Honestly, 2020 needs to die in a fire. I am SO very sad to hear this news. I wish I had words of wisdom, but I just don’t. You will be in my thoughts!
I’m so sorry for you. I’m holding my thumbs for your recover. Bad english, I know. I love your refashions, they carry me i my life of sickness (ME). Love and hugs to you ❤️
Jillian, Ive been praying for you since you had first told us about this and I was so sad I cried when I read your words that you have Stage III ovarian cancer. This has been such a terrible year and I am so very sorry you have to go through this. You have been such an inspiration to me with your refashioning blog and there have been so many times my day was so brightened by checking out your blog and reading your funny descriptions and seeing your cute and funny facial expressions as you enlighten us in how to turn something ugly into something cute. Ive also enjoyed your little tidbits about your husband, dogs and life. It is hard not to think of you as someone I know as a friend. I want you to know I will be praying for you as you go through the next leg of your journey through this. I hope your sweet husband Brian will continue to research for you anything that could help you get through this be it new cancer treatments, or best diet, (sugar is known to be very bad to eat when you have cancer as cancer cells love sugar) or whatever. I do know that God is our healer and in the Bible verse John 14:13 Jesus says “Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. So Jillian, I will be asking Father God in heaven to heal you in the name of His son Jesus Christ. Thank you for keeping us updated and I am so glad you are going to continue the blog as you can through this. I know you are young and strong and I believe by the grace of God and His healing you are going to get through this and come out stronger in many ways and will be doing the Refashionista blog for many years to come. Hugs to you.
You are already inspiring, I’m sending you all my good energy.
Your doctor was right to tell you not to look this up on the internet. It’s all gloom and doom and most of the time the information is incorrect. I’ve been a nurse for 35 years and always told my patients to be positive, listen to their doctor’s advice and not what other people say a friend of a friend experienced. Everyone is different. Don’t be afraid to ask your doctor any questions you may have and share your concerns with him too. You’re going to have good days and you’re going to have bad days. Just remember the bad days don’t last and try to focus on the moment and the things that make you happy. It’s also okay to cry but also remember to smile once in a while. I wish you all the best and I sincerely hope your good days far out number the bad ones. I love your blog and one of these days I’m going to try some of these refashions!
Kia ora from Aotearoa New Zealand, which literally means “health, life and wellbeing” to you. Thank you for your courage, your creativity and your ability to be honest! Those “yikes” pics of the pre-refashions are what first hooked me in to your blog. Your ability to bring beauty and utter transformation from the most horrific of garments is proof that you have the ability to get through this, you have literally been prepping for this your whole life. Having successfully been through the “snip” and “whirrrrrr” process, your refashing continues. We wait patiently (perhaps the best word) with you. Let the fabric do it’s thing.
Sending you so much love and good thoughts. I’m so sorry the news was not what you hoped.
You’ve got this, lady! Stay positive and the rest of us will continue to put good thoughts out into the universe.
Prayers and hugs!!
I have followed you and your inspiring blog for years… I am sorry that you are having to navigate such a journey when your life should only be filled with joy and happiness. Please know that many people who you have never met are routing for you quietly in the background. Sending only happy vibes to you and your family. kari
I was diagnosed with a rare bone cancer just as COVID hit the states. I had surgery to remove part of my femur and insert a titanium rod from mid thigh to mid calf. Then the chemo started. Six rounds of cisplatin and doxorubicin on 48 hour IV drip with no family or friends allowed in the hospital due to the virus. It absolutely sucked – there’s no good way to say it. What it gave me was a deeper knowledge of how much my partner, Brian, and my family love me. Of how life is so much about the attitude you have and doesn’t have to be defined by your circumstances. Yup, I lost my hair, was in a wheelchair, then a walker, then a cane and now – now I walk on my own, and my hair is growing back, and I’m sewing, and weeding my garden, and finally repainting the patio furniture. Cancer sucks, but life is wonderful. Concentrate on life. The road through the sickness is hard, but you will be amazed at how strong you are. Please reach out to me if you just need to share, or if you want tips on getting through chemo, or for any reason at all. You can do this, Jillian.
We all love following you and watching your humorous antics and amazing sewing talent! I’m happy that you are continuing to blog! Use it to propel yourself and know that we all support you and pray for you. Sending huge positive thoughts your way, girl!!! ❤️
I’m not sure if I’ve ever commented. I’ve been lurking forever, back to when I wanted to sew but was clueless and trying to juggle too many things. During your blog hiatus I began sewing in earnest and now my family wears my handmade items. I was so excited when you came back because now I could find inspiration for the garments waiting for something in my attic.
I wanted to lend you more support so badly that I’m not only busting out of lurking but also commenting on my iPad. I’m sorry and we will all be hear for you, waiting even if you’re too tired to blog.
Loooong time reader, first time commenter. Stay strong. Stay positive. I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer at 39 and like you, was blindsided by the news. I couldn’t understand how a healthy young woman with no significant family history of cancer could be diagnosed. I had surgery and 8 years later am doing well. Two years after I was diagnosed, my husband found out he had colon cancer. After surgery and numerous rounds of chemo, he is now doing really well. We both are. I know every story is different, but I’ve always believed things happen to us for a reason. You bring light and love to so many people and are such an inspiration with your creativity and mad sewing skills. Please know you have followers who are praying for you and your family.
Aww, that is literally the worst. I’m so sorry you got that news. Since I read your watermelon post, I have been thinking about you and hoping everything would be all right. My best friend was diagnosed a few years back with cancer when we were 27, also otherwise healthy and making all the good choices. I remember going through the same thought spiral. She kicked it, and has gone on to lead an otherwise awesome life in remission, minus her own less-than-benign companion Clyde (Clyde!!! I shake my fist in solidarity). Please, join that support group you mentioned. You have an amazing gift for bringing people together – now it is time for the universe to support YOU. Also, I highly recommend a therapist who specializes in grief/loss/disease diagnosis, for you and Mr. Refash. Your hospital has a referral list, I’m sure – “clicking” with a therapist is important, so try out a couple if the first one doesn’t feel like a good fit for you. Big mental hugs from an internet stranger, and please know I am cheering you on from Chicago.
I think your reaction is so on point. Sure, we can find the positive in any situation but it’s totally normal to say, “I’m scared”. Allowing yourself to experience all the emotions is such a balanced and fair way to treat yourself. I am so sorry to hear this news. I will be praying that God grant you peace of mind to make sound decisions and a calm heart so you will not be consumed with worry. (Phil 4:6,7) Hold on to your positive thoughts and stare this challenge down in the face. “You’re a big brave dog!” (That’s from rugrats circa 95) Please keep us posted….you never know which one of us can offer help.
Girl! Be strong! I wait every new post from you and it cannot change. As you wrote – you eat healthy, you do sport – your body is prepared for this hard battle. You will win!
You will get through this! Sending lots of positive and healing vibes towards you! Ever since I started reading your blog, years ago, I thought you are a fighter! Stay strong, darling! ❤️
Well, I wish you all the love in the world. You will get through this, with your natural charm and humour.
I have been reading your blog for as long as I can remember and you’ve always been such a bright spot in my web browsing. Selfishly, I hope that crafting and writing here can help you feel some sense of normalcy during a tough time. Unselfishly, take whatever time you need as you begin the process – we will always be here waiting and looking forward to an update.
Yes, please take care of yourself and prayers for you and your sweet husband. I’m so glad that you are continuing with the blog so we can follow along with you and maybe in some cosmic way shoulder some of your burden.
Jillian,
I too am a longtime lurker and I am so sorry you’re going through this. You do whatever you need to take care of yourself, and please believe I am sending you and your husband and family so much love and healing energy. You are a true joy and you have brought me so many laughs and ideas for refashions (maybe I’ll finally tackle one this weekend!). All the love coming to you from Austin.
You’ve had more than your fair share of troubles this year. Take as much time as you need to rest and heal and beat this thing. I’m going to pray for every cell of cancer to shrivel up! You got this.
Oh this year has been a rough one from the very start! You take care of yourself. My thoughts and prayers go out to you. Keep the courage!
Lots of love to you. You inspired me to take what I’ve got and look at through refashion lenses (though I’m still terrible, haha!). But you know what, you don’t need to be the inspirational TV woman, you do you love and we’ll all be here to support you when you are able to post and share your journey. Lots of positive vibes heading your way!
Jillian,
I am another silent but adoring and appreciative fan, silently soaking up your inspiration, spunk and humor. I am heartbroken for you and Brian to have this dumped on you in your first year, or any year! I am a mammography Technologist, we offer every patient the opportunity to test for genetic markers for 8 different cancers, one of which is ovarian. I recently had a patient who had Stage 3 Ovarian Ca 15 years ago. She beat it and has had no recurrence of any kind. Please stay as positive as you are able, eat your healthy foods, get fresh air and sunshine. Never forget and dont under estimate the healing powers of laughter, and of beauty! Please try not to go down the rabbit hole of Google! One last thing: all of us want to help and I know at least one other person asked if we could send cards, letters, books, self care items, and even money to help out. I agree that this would be wonderful!! To protect your privacy would Brian consider setting up a PO Box?? Just a thought!
I am thinking of you as are so many of your fan friends, sending positive healing energy, prayers, love, empathy, and every other good thing I can think of.
And now, you fight to win. With youth and overall health on your side. I’m 66 and each day since hearing your diagnosis, I’m envisioning looking down on you and Brian from heaven when you are my age. You’ll haves doxies and still love refashioning. I see it. (My mom and older cousin both survived both melanoma and breast cancer. Mom died at 89, not of cancer. Cousin, lifelong smoker, still alive and well at 78.
Omg that was a gut punch when I read it. I am so sorry. As a therapist, please get some outside help from a neutral party. Lots of love to you.
You are Loved!! Even if from afar and by total strangers, you are loved…I was heartsick to read this news this morning. Please know that I will be fervently praying for you and Brian. You are an inspiration to me in SO many ways… I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Now as others have said, Carry On Precious One!!…Fight Well..Take excellent care of yourself…and don’t be afraid to ask questions and require kindness and professionalism in your treatment and care.
We are in your corner ALL the way!!
Hugs, Love, Concern, and Prayers heading your way now and throughout this journey!
Jeanna
You have already provided more inspiration than that movie character ever could have. You will continue to inspire no matter what else you do from now forward. You are LOVED…obviously by many friends and family but many, many fans too, like me. Holding sacred space for you and your continued journey.
I feel your pain. I am a six year breast cancer survivor. I didnt even feel my lump and was diagnosed as stage 2a. This isnt a death sentence for you, its in only one lymph node. Sure, its serious but youre a smart girl. Do as the drs tell you, honor your body….if youre tired, then you need to rest….this will be a blip in your life. Youve already rocked a shaved head and youll be cute as the dickens. Just breathe, dont focus on the negative. You and yours will get you through!
Saying prayers for healing and for knowledge for your doctors as they develop a treatment plan.
I’m a recent reader of your blog and yet I feel I’ve known you for years! I’m sad to read you have to deal with that wretched “C” monster. Advocate for yourself always, write down everything (chemo brain is a real thing), keep a running list of all medical issues including health history. And of course, lean on that loving husband
P.S. naps are good!
Thank you for this update. You have been an inspiration to me in many ways. I will send you all the positive vibes I can and wish you all the best going forward. Hugs from Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Know you are an inspiration to many, and your creativity will get you through this. Fight this ugly thing and fight hard, you are strong and we’ve watched your strength over and over again, at least what you were willing to share. You got this. You are in my thoughts and prayers
I was so very sad to hear your news. You have been such an inspiration to many for years! We love you, and your great posts. I’m sure that I speak for many of us when I say that we will be sending our positive thoughts and prayers your way. Please stay strong. Take excellent care of yourself. We’re all pulling for you- God Bless-
I am sorry to hear this diagnosis! I have been thinking about you and wondering what was happening. I have a positive outcome for you – someone we know was diagnosed with Stage 4 ovarian cancer, probably about 20 years ago. She is still alive today and really healthy. She totally recovered! So try to keep from reading the doom and gloom and surround yourself with positivity and light and i will be praying for healing of the highest measure for you!
Well, that really f-ing sucks. I can’t tell you how much I’ve enjoyed your blog over the years and consider you a friend. And so I will keep you in my thoughts and send as much virtual support as I can while you go through this. I’m really sorry and I hope your treatment goes very well.
Yes, please do tell us if we can help you financially eg set up a “Fund me page”
Merci d’être là .. vous êtes une belle personne.. J’adore vos posts ..
Courage et revenez nous vite ..
🙂
Everyone hates the C word. I was very lucky that my small watermelon was a dermoid cyst. It meant losing that ovary and fallopian tube but it was a hard pill to swallow because I had just gotten married. We wanted a child. Which I did manage to have. But in the end the cysts kept coming back on the surviving ovary. And they always had to be surgically removed. One year I had one removed in February and had another found in October. Another person commented about being your own advocate and to speak up for yourself. Ask the questions even if you think it might not matter. When my doctor told me that I could have another surgery 6 months after having one removed. I stood up and said I will wait till the cyst is so big you HAVE to remove everything. Before I walked out the door he stopped me. He said if you want a full hysterectomy then let’s see if your insurance will approve one. He made a list of all surgeries I had done in that 10 year span, presented it to my insurance and they approved the total hysterectomy. I had it done when I was 36. If I had not spoken up who knows how many more surgeries before a doctor recommended the hysterectomy.
My thoughts will be with you and hoping for a good outcome. Don’t lose your voice and it is ok to grieve the life you had before the C word became a part of that life. Stay safe and I’ll be looking for the good news. Hugs
Refashionista, your legacy is that of inspiration to the masses, to be thrifty and ethical in consumption of material goods. You are the reason I started to refashion, years ago, and you continue to inspire me even today. Rock on and just do you.
Adding you to my prayer list!!! You got this!!!!
Sending you love and hugs from Australia ❤️
Oh man. I too thought I was healthy and all was going right in my world when I got a diagnosis of cancer. Sending you love and light and strength. Energy work helped me get through all the fear, emotions and side effects that went with it for me. I have no idea if you are interested in it but EFT, PSTEC and a practitioner in the Yuen method all helped make it easier. Wishing you peace and health.
In this world of unfairness, I find myself weeping for you and praying fervently for you and your family.
I hear you. I was diagnosed 5 years ago with breast cancer and I had the same kinds of thoughts as you. I was healthy, fit, ate well. I ate ALL THE DAMNED KALE. How did this happen to me?
Treatment will most likely be exhausting, so be gentle with yourself. Also, everyone will tell you to keep a positive attitude, and I am here to let you know that you don’t have to do that. If it helps you, great. But it is perfectly valid to feel sad, angry, cheated, discouraged, whatever you feel in these circumstances. Keeping a positive attitude won’t help you beat cancer, medical treatment will. So feel however you feel and don’t apologize for it.
Last thing — I found I had to advocate for myself a lot during cancer treatment. Don’t be afraid to ask questions or express what you’d like to have happen during the course of your treatment. (I became a board certified patient advocate after my treatment!)
Wishing you speedy healing and a treatment process that’s as smooth and pleasant as can be expected.
HI Jillian, I’ve been enjoying your posts for years and recently became a subscriber. As a lifetime stitcher, I just want to say you are an inspiration, each and every time. You are a shit hot writer as well and I just want to say we are all pulling for you, sending you our strength and healing wishes. Take care of yourself. You are and will remain beautiful, inside and out.
I am sorry to hear your bad news and I will hold you in the Light forever. We have never met but I consider you a very special friend!!!! Sending you love and healthy thoughts.
Jillian – Hard news. Hang in there and realize every day will have it’s own challenges and rewards. Stay tough and fight. On days when it seems like too much, give yourself the permission to take a break(or breakdown) and then tomorrow hit it hard again. Hang on to your creativity and your passions as we all know that keeping busy will help your mental health. And please remember all the people you have touched with your writing who are out here cheering you on to live your best life. Big hugs girl!
I tried to think of something to say that isn’t a cliche, but I’m coming up empty. I’ve been reading your blog for so long, I feel like I know you personally. I can’t begin to imagine how you must be feeling right now, but I wanted to at least take a moment to say that I’ll be cheering you on from afar through this awful time.
Jillian, no need to be brave, or to feel like you need to be the inspirational TV lady or even continue this blog if you don’t feel up to it or simply can not. This situation requires you be true to yourself, your needs and your healing. And that’s all that really matters.
read a John Wayne quote a few days ago that I think applies here:
“Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway.” . . . . . . . . sounds like you’re already up in the saddle.
. . . . will be praying for courage, peace and complete healing
Hi, I have been stalking this site for years.
Ovarian cancer May be super treatable because it often relies on hormones to thrive. So abandon no hope, there is still too little information to make any assumptions. It will be a sucky time though.
On the other hand I admire your dedication even in this difficult time. You do not have to be the inspirational lady with cancer You are an inspiration already.
Prayers for you. I am so sorry to hear this, I have been following your re-fashions for so long. Cancer sucks. My husband was 33 and we had a 4 month old when he got is diagnosed. I’m glad your husband has found you some support groups, but as a spouse it is hard and he is going to also need a support system. I haven’t read over all the comments- but a tip I learned is to record your conversations with doctors, they are going to give you a lot of information, you are not going to remember everything. You can go back to the recording. Of all the doctors I visited with my husband, we were never told no about recording. Praying for you and yours.
Sending prayers your way for whatever you need. I pray for strength. I love your blog have been following for quite some time.
I am so sorry Jillian. I have been checking each day for news and was assuming you would be telling us…”all is good” One breath at a time…it is really tough news to absorb. We stand with you in all of your Refashionista amazingness. Take care of yourself…I mean it. As women we’re not very good at self care. Blog if you want to, share news if you want to, reach out to us for support when you need it. Sending love and positive energy.
If anyone can beat this you can. You have hundreds of friends right here who love & believe in you.
So you keep being you, have a lot of faith & go out there and kick some cancerous butt! Show it who’s boss!
And always remember we will all be right here sitting in front of you cheering you on.
I’m so sorry Jillian!! I’ve been following your blog for years!! All the ups and down you’ve gone through. I’ve never commented, I’ve just been a silent supporter. But I’m heartbroken that you are going to face something so frightening. But we’re all here for you!! And I promise, everyone will be kind about your appearance through treatment because we all love you and support you. You got this Jillian!!!!!
Oh goodness Jillian. Like everyone else I’m shocked and sad to hear your news, and want to send you all sorts of good wishes.
Your lovely husband has found you a brilliant shortcut to the helpful information, without wading through the horrors of Dr Google. If he can find you some large groups of ovarian cancer patients they will have the info on how to ease treatment side-effects etc… and be a wonderful source of support because they ‘get it’ in a way that other people can’t.
What I’m guessing you’ll have problems with is putting yourself first, at least through treatment. Self-care is very important though, and you’ll need to say ‘no’ to people when necessary.
Wishing you as easy a time as possible, and a successful result.
I so enjoy your upbeat ways of inspiring us to tackle refashioning projects! Sending inspiration to you with a dose of love while you fight this disease!
Awful f’ing news. My heart goes out to you, Jillian. Sending you positive vibes. You have a huge support network out here.
Oh, man, I hate this news too. I hate this for you, and I’m so, so sorry. So mind-blowing and scary and so much to take in. And oh my — what a huge tumor?!! You yourself are barely larger than a small watermelon! It’s good you got that damn thing out — that in itself has to feel better.
I’m pulling for you all the way. I’m a big fan of your blog — I too love refashioning, and I’ve found you inspiring. But what I really love is your humor and joy and humanity. You are a very small lady with a gigantic and hilarious personality, and I am here for it. And I don’t care what you wrote about — I’ll be reading it.
Sending you the biggest warmest tightest virtual hug possible. You have good support, a lot going for you. I can say — as a nurse — that healthy lifestyle and diet may not have kept this asshole tumor from showing up, but it sure as shit will help you deal with the treatment and help your body recover. You are coming in strong in so many ways.
Jillian this is so heartbreaking to hear. How can we send you letters, care packages, and a little cash for treats and anything else you may need?
Oh dear, like you, I had hoped for better news. In February of last year, I was diagnosed with breast cancer, so there was surgery, chemo and radiation, which pretty much took up the rest of the year. My hair finally is of a decent length again, but curly, never had curls before. *Amazon has cheap wigs
No one in my family had cancer. My biggest sadness was the thought that I might die before my husband, who is a bit of a klutz (we are 76). I was hysterical for a while and then slowly crawled back to living one day at a time, like everybody else, while transitioning from “normal person”, to “cancer person”. Along with your body, your self-image gets knocked about, big time.
It is probably going to be a rough road but you are feisty and creative and blessed with a great support system and a wonderful husband. The grieving process will probably be long, but is necessary. You will be angry at times and that’s part of it.
Avoid the googling. Every case is different, and the research is progressing every day.
Most of all remain hopeful and positive when you can. Love and light and prayers will engulf you from this wonderful group of people you have collected with your inspiring and unique blog! We are with you! Keep us informed. Big Hug!
I agree with all the people here who are telling you that you have many many people on your side. We are all over the world and the same time here on your blog 🙂 sending you good thoughts, praying, crossing fingers and beliving in you.
Trzymaj się mocno, ściskam ❤
Prayers for you, your husband, all your family and friends who will be there for you through this journey. I am very sorry to hear about the diagnosis. I will pray for your strength and peace as you fight this cancer. Cancer Sucks and I hate it! I have shared the refashionista blog with so many friends and you have always been an inspiration. we will be praying for a speedy recovery!
Thoughts and prayers sent your way!
I’m so sorry you have to go through this.
Sending you lots of love, hugs and strength from Germany
So sorry to read your news. I love your upbeat and creative blog. You’re still you! Sending prayers, hope, positive energy and love for this journey from Israel.
I am so sorry to hear this. You are such a courageous woman, I will pray for you and all the people who are sharing this cancer wiht you.
I have been thinking about you and thought the news may not be good since it was so long in coming. Please know that you are loved by all those you touch. We will be helping to carry this burden with our love, support and prayers. Hugs to you and your hubby. Enjoy each day.
I’m so sorry! Know that you have a world of people who are rooting for you!!! You CAN and WILL beat this thing! Check out this woman’s late stage ovarian cancer survival story and what she’s done to stay cancer free: https://nutritionstudies.org/late-stage-ovarian-cancer-diagnosis-beating-odds/
I am grieved to hear your sad news. Do not give up hope; no matter the statistics, people do survive ovarian cancer, and you’re going to be one of them! Write out a list of all the reasons you need to survive and post it on the fridge so you can see it on the days that aren’t so great ahead. We only die when we give up hope. I am a 3-time cancer survivor myself and the power of positive thinking is immense. Allow yourself to have a 5-minute ‘pity party’ now and then but focus on getting well. My prayers are with you. Sending gentle hugs.
Prayers for you, your husband, all your family and friends who will be there for you through this journey.
I’m so sorry to hear this news. You will be in my prayers. I wish you peace and comfort in the coming days.
You’ve been a huge inspiration to me for many years now. I wish hope and strength for you, your husband, your family and your precious hound dogs.
I am so sorry. That sounds so scary and I so wish you had gotten better news. Thank you for your openness and vulnerability. I hope that you beat this thing and I wish you strength and hopefulness along the way. Sending you lots of good energy!
So sorry to hear this! Just take it one day at a time.
It’s just like you said – this illness does not define you!!! It is not going to be easy, but just keep on going, one day at the time. Sending good vibrations!
I feel for you. You continue to be positive though you are totally allowed to be angry and scared. Be exactly who you are. We are all with you!
Jillian, you make me laugh and you inspire me to think outside the box…hope that one more comment for strength and healing and love to you and your husband and fur family gives you a boost in this dark time…take care and be strong…Abby
Best wishes to you and lots of hugs. So sorry you are going through this. Feel free to blog about whatever you want!! It’s your voice that matters, not the topic.
You already are an inspiration to all of us. Take much care.
Sending lots of prayers for peace and courage
Oh my God Bless you,praying that everything will be all right. I will keep you in my prayers.
Thinking of you this morning after wondering just yesterday how you were doing. Sending best (healthiest!) wishes and lots of strength to you and Brian.
From one SC Doxi Mom to another, fight like someone is attempting to take Douglas and his little brother, Benson. I think my follower number is something like 1016 so I’ve been with you for awhile now. The day I saw you on the Today Show I almost fell out of my chair laughing. I was not expecting this teeny, tiny voice from you because on this blog you are Loud, Strong, and Fearless. You touch so many people in such a positive encouraging way so let us help build you up for this fight.
Now a note for Brian and Erin–There is nothing worse than watching your loved one suffer and feeling powerless to take away the hurt and pain but you guys are the Cheerleaders, the smiling faces, the caregivers of all things required to make your Jillian smile just a little. My husband is end stage renal and the only thing keeping him alive is a machine five days a week but we forge ahead awaiting the call from MUSC that a kidney match has been found. I know the view from the sidelines well but all of you just keeping fighting and remind Jillian on her darkest days ahead to not give up and FIGHT LIKE A GIRL. Love and Hugs, Hugs, Hugs from Hilton Head.
Prayers for you, Mr. Refashionista, and your medical team. Sending lots of hugs!
Jillian, my thoughts and prayers are with you, I am so sorry to read about this terrible news.. I admire your strength and bravery in posting this and it looks like you have a lot of support from sewists around the world. Know that while we may not be near, you are in my daily prayers for a complete recovery.
You have been an inspiration to me in so many ways since I first found you via Pinterest and You Tube. Not just your love and skills with clothing remakes, but your love and compassion for animals, your friends, life. I am sending lots of virtual hugs and daily prayers for you and Mr. Fashionista.
From someone who survived stage IV colon cancer, you can do this! You will find humor in the oddest things and strength you didn’t know you had. Do what you love and when you can’t, give yourself grace. If you don’t have a therapist ask your doctor for a referral. Best thing I did to help my depression and attitude about how I “should” be handling things. My prayers are with you and Mr. R. You are loved!
Getting a diagnosis is exhausting all in it’s own. You’re right – you get tired to your very bones. Take all the naps. There’s always too much research done before, and too many thing you feel like you need to do before you start chemo, but know you’ve got a tribe that’s here for you.
Some days it all feels like too much, and some days you will feel like you’re doing something right (you are! Your brain just wants to trick you, I swear.). But no matter what, always hug your loved ones, take the pills when they tell you to take them, and drink water. Everything else will sort itself out. You don’t feel like it right now, but you’re a strong, awesome person and you can do it. Take it hour by hour if you need to. Sometimes just counting your breaths for an hour will get you through. Or to a nap, and that’s good too.
I’m sending you all the positive vibes. Be kind to yourself.
You have been an inspiration for me ever since I found your blog. I really love what you do and every time there is a notification of a new blog entry, my day brightens up a little. You are such a wonderful person. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Let us know if we can support you in any way.
I wish I could give you a great big hug. Sending you lots of positive vibes. Stay strong!
Well, fuck. This sucks. We are all here cheering you on and sending so much love. I’m so sorry. 2020 needs to settle the fuck down, my friend. If we can do anything tangible to help, just say the word.
Prayer are coming your way and staying steady and doing you will keep you busy to concentrate on the positive. You got this young lady !!!❤️
I’m so sorry to hear this. Cancer is such a hard road. I wish you strength and peace, and I hope for a great outcome for you.
I don’t comment usually, but I love your inspiring work! Know that people will be praying for you and people will be hoping for your best outcome. God be with you and your hub, you are loved!
This Totally Sucks. You have had such a tough time throughout the pandemic. I love your blog posts and anything you are willing to share. Much Love to you and your family now and in the future.
Interestingly, I just read an email about a new Netflix documentary that you may be interested in watching. I haven’t seen it yet but I will definitely give it a look. It’s called CBD nation. It just came out today 08/26/20. Prayers for you.
I love your talent, inspiration, and humor too! You give so much to all of us, so let it be known we HAVE YOUR BACK! Get thru this, and take all the time/advice that is available to you! Will be praying for you and your family.
YOU WILL BEAT THIS.
I’m so sorry to hear this. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Looks like you have 3 great caretakers with hubby and your two pups! ❤️
My heart really goes out to you and Brian. I do so hope you find your way through this. Sending you positive energy from Portugal. Love, mutch love, you are great!
You are my fashion idol in terms of refashioning clothes…and I am deeply saddened of the news…but you know what? Our God is greater than our problems and worries and fears and circumstancial bounces and bumps in our life…keep that in mind…and also, God is our greatest healer. Praying for you and your family and keep the faith. God loves you, Jillian.
Hello, I know everyone has their suggestions, unfortunately many will read about a theory in a book and take it as gospel, but someone in a forum suggested that I reach out to you because our Facebook group @Sharing the Detox Diet by Dr. Robert Morse is open to answering questions because we have accumulated a lot of success stories including my own. Some people really have to go strict and get onto grape or watermelon juice for a few weeks to hydrate and give digestion the full rest that vegetable cellulose prevents.
I know it sounds like a small difference but the full 2000 calories per day in melon citrus or grape juice is how we are doing it… Herbs also help and are easier to digest than vegetables.
This is the club, please create a profile and reach out there or at least join us on Facebook and reach out there! https://www.drmorsesherbalhealthclub.com/
We are ALL here for you and because of you (so you see, you are that inspirational lady)! You can do this! Sending you all the strength and good vibes I have!
Love from the UK
Thank you for sharing, it often helps. Thinking of you and sending love from Australia
I’m so sorry to hear that. I believe you are strong and I wish you all the best. My thoughts are with you, Brian and the dogs.
Kind regards, Alexandra
I’m so sorry for you and your family and hope everything will get better. You are loved !!! Sending you mentally some of my energy from France ❤
Ca me brise le coeur de te savoir aussi loin et aussi triste. Ca me rassure de savoir que tu es bien entourée. Tu fais partie de ma vie depuis quelques années même si je ne t’ai jamais rencontrée. Tu m’as tellement inspirée ! Je t’envoie plein d’amour et de courage pour affronter cette épreuve.
I follow your blog and have found you inspiring. Sorry to hear about your cancer. You will get better but the process is awful. I had stage 4 melanoma. The chemo wipes out your system. I had a great oncologist who used to arrange for me to have regular blood and plasma transfusions to offset the effects of chemo. You might also want to consider a cancer psychotherapist. I had one and he helped me calm down and use my brain rather than an emotional response. I learnt to be mindful and meditate, though I mostly fell asleep in my armchair. In Australia, we have a cancer buddy system, someone you can talk to or have a cry with. Check and see if you can find a buddy. Happy to chat if it helps. Ann Burgess, Melbourne, Australia.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us – I would have quite understood if you’d just shut up shop for the duration. I hope that you’re finding hope – you have a lot of things on your side for recovery although I will also be crossing my fingers and sending positive vibes to you to cover all bases.
You’ve probably had a million suggestions of wacky things to do but I’ll mention it in case it is helpful – a friend of mine had cancer and as well as chemo, he got onto a very very low carb diet. Apparently it helps you deal with chemo (if that’s the way you go) and discourages cancer. He did the old miraculous recovery and has been good for about 5 years now and is convinced that it helped him.
My heart really goes out to you and Brian. I do so hope you find your way through this.
Dear Jilian, sending you love and support from South Africa. You have touched so many lives, we are all praying for your full recovery. Feel the love…
I’m sending you strength and payers from France.
I’m so sad to read this news Jillian. After following you for so long I feel that I know you as a friend. I’ll be praying every day that your treatment will go well.
As others have already said, you must write, rest, create etc doing as much or as little as you feel.
Sending you great love and hugs x
I hate that you’re going through this Gillian. My thoughts and heavy prayers are being sent up for your quick and full healing. I’m sure your positive outlook will be key in getting you through this. So glad you have refashioning to give you something else to think about. Big hugs from afar.
What s#&t news. Our collective hearts, thoughts and prayers are with you and your hubby. ❤️
Wow, this sucks. Jillian, I’m so sorry you are navigating this. Your blog is always such a bright spot in my week and you seem like such a positive person. Love and prayers from this stranger, and courage for the road ahead.
Dear Refashionista,
My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face this battle. I pray God helps give you strength and confidence and optimism to aid you through every step of the way back to good health!!!
Some things to know about going through chemo from a 7 year survivor of ovarian cancer. Wear loose clothes and button down shirts. A pair of slip on shoes and never go into the bathroom in just socks. People dribble! Don’t feel hungry? Try Spirolena (sp?) the chocolate one doesn’t taste like dirt. Nausea before treatment – try frozen raspberries. Bring a little pillow and a blanket. Bring a game to play with others sitting there alone in their chairs or bring some popcorn or a snack to share – get to know others and SHARE your story. Don’t be afraid when strangers come up and hug you and tell you they have been there! Never give up! Think healing thoughts as you get your treatment.
I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. Sending you best wishes for strength and health. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way. Take care of yourself. We will be waiting when you are up to sharing more of your journey or refashions and cheering you on from afar. Lots of love to you and your family and friends.
Jillian, I am so sorry to hear your diagnosis. It must be scary. I understand your sadness. I am sending love and care from the Pacific Northwest. Love, Emily
Sending prayers your way, along with hug of support. Im claiming victory over this health challenge on your behalf.
I send you only positive and healing thoughts. Your blog has always been a highlight for me. I wish only the best for you, your husband, family and friends.
I’m sorry to hear this news, but optimistic that you will come through just fine. I’ll keep you in prayer, and look forward to your refashions.
Jillian, I’ve followed your blog for years – it’s my favourite. Please know that there are SO MANY people out there who are cheering you on <3 <3 <3 Sending healing wishes your way from Saskatchewan, Canada.
I’m so sad to hear this awful news. Your blog has brought a lot of joy to my life, and I want you to know we’ll be here cheering for you and your family in this journey to good health. God bless.
I am so sorry for your diagnosis. I will pray for you everyday. God speed and love!
Thanks for all your ideas and designs you have shared…I am sending healing thoughts and energy to deal with this…it takes over your life and saps your energy ….sending Texas sized love and caring your way day after day to give you a little lift!
Stay strong, my friend! Prayers and virtual hugs from Kansas!
Fighting! And tonnes of love ♥️
You are a true inspiration! I love your blog (and I’m old enough to be your grandma!) and your funny, positive and quirky (in a really good way) personality! Hugs to you and your family! Sending all the good karma your way! Your bravery will continue to shine through ❤️
Sending you positive energy from the west coast. Your many fans and friends send support. Your blog is so entertaining and your talent is enormous. Fight hard.
I have followed your creations for a long time. I enjoy your positive attitude and I always smile when I read anything you post (except this). You have helped me get my granddaughters interested in making their clothes personal & unique, not to mention FUN! Thank you. You & Mr. Fashionista have become a part of our family. You have our prayers & support. I have seen several medical “miracles” in my family over the years, yes they do exist. I will probably never meet you but you are such a positive in my life because of the impact on my babies to create & sew. And I love the cooking posts too.
Sending tons of love and positive vibes your way. I’m sorry you have to walk this path. I’m happy you’ll be keeping us posted on how you’re doing and that you’ll still be doing refashions as you’re able. Giving thanks for unknown blessing already on their way to you.
Adding prayers from Nashville to the growing list of people who follow you and love the joy you bring to our lives through this blog. I will be thinking of you and your family through this fight you have ahead of you. You continue to be such an inspiration to so many. May God be with you.
I have loved reading your blog for years, and have always marveled at your amazing creativity and style! You are in my prayers- I wish you peace, healing , and strength!
So very sorry to hear this. I cried when I read your post. I don’t even know you personally but I know what a battle you will face. Praying for strength, courage, comfort and most of all healing.
You have been such a fashion inspiration to me and brighten my day with every refashion you post. Now you will continue to be an inspiration to all of us as you fight and win this battle.
Sending loving thoughts your way. Take the time to deal however you can or want to. We will still be here when you’re ready.
Sending prayers of healing. I look forward to your blog. I pray that to will beat this and that you will continue this blog for many years to come!
Sorry to hear your news but you already are ” that Inspirational TV Movie Lady…” with all the wonderful things you do to up cycle fashion! Stay positive…you got this and all your avid followes behind you girl!!!
Lots of love from Germany, I have been through some cancer issues as well and still if the chemotherapy was concentrating in an 8 hrs OP I do not know if it will come back in the future. I have been loving all your inspiring sewing projects, I hope to give back some support and some seconds of relief. A big hug to you and your loved ones for this intense journey.
Sending love and hope your way, Jillian. You’ve created a wonderful blog that is extremely creative and fun, and I want to thank you for sharing this space with us. Fingers crossed for a recovery that is as smooth as is possible.
You have been and will remain in my prayers! Please continue to take care of yourself and lean on those around you when you need help. Sending virtual hugs to you!
Love to you! Stay strong! We’ve got your back! Lots of love & positive vibes going to you!!!
I’ve been a long time lurker. I’m lighting a candle for you. I believe in you. You can do this and you will come back stronger!
Gosh, so many things I want to say to give you hope and comfort and wish you well…
My mum died years ago from Ovarian Cancer (just over 30 now) when I was 17 – it was secondaries in the bowel. Things were so backward back then, they just sewed her up and moved straight to aggressive chemo to extend life.
I’m so pleased you now have a clear diagnosis, even if it’s not the ideal one.
My sister recently had non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma, got chemo and is still with us. This is after she survived breast cancer about 20 years ago. So cancer is an acquaintance I hope never to get to know first hand.
From what I know, nothing you did bought this on you. Something turned on a little switch in your genes, probably in the environment, and here you are. Thank goodness you have good care and can treat this. I think you have the best possible chance of recovery with being fit, healthy and young. I also put a lot of stock in all the good energy coming to you from the people you have entertained and delighted with your site.
Selfishly, I’m overjoyed to read that you will continue posting when you can. It’ll be a good distraction and outlet. I’ll sure your entire readership and beyond will pray and put all the good energy into the ether that they can.
Love and light to you beautiful!
So sorry you have to go through this. You are a strong woman and you will fight this. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
We love you. I am so sorry this terrible thing is happening to you during and already terrible time. I hope that the love and support radiating from the refashion community and all of your fans provides some warmth during this dark time.
Thank you for the update as I was just thinking about you today. Not the news we were hoping for but there are a lot of people behind and with you. I too am in the midst of a bout of COVID cancer (breast) and believe it or not there are a few upsides: you don’t need an excuse to lay low, hopefully your loved ones are at home a little more, and parking at the hospital is great! Always look forward to your posts, you will continue to be in my thoughts.
Crappy news. Sending you supportive vibes and looking forward to reading your posts, whatever they are about, whenever you feel inspired.
I have been checking and checking for updates from you. I am so sorry that you did not get the news you were hoping for. That WE were hoping for. This really sucks. Know that you are not in this alone. You have an army routing for you and we will be here to support you. Hugs to you and Mr. F.
This sucks. Jillian you are amazing. Your refashions always put me in awe! I wish there was a magic wand to make this go away. Reading all the comments you are thought off all over the world. Hope our prayers and good vibes help you. We love you. Hugs!
We are all sending you prayers and positive thoughts. Take care of you. We love you. (That probably sounds weird since most of us don’t actually know you, but I’m serious…you have impacted all of our lives with your creativity and fun personality.)
Sweet, sweet girl, I am so sorry you are in this battle. Not one anybody chooses, but certainly one that can be won. It will take all the gifts you have to fight this, your patience your creativity, your strength, and the strength of those around you who love you, but I believe you will make it through to the other side.
I have been concerned for you when we didn’t hear from you for so long, but I know you are in good hands and I will be praying for you, and for those who love you.
Hang in there, dear. You’ve got this. And as you can see we’re all behind you to help any way we can.
(((Gentle Hugs)))
Your blog has been such an inspiration to me. I am sending my thoughts and prayers to you. You are such an upbeat person, This will not conquer your spirit.
Hi girl, stay strong and fight like a girl. If you are interested try to find a book by Kerry Clifford “Cancered plans “ (yes, cancered plans not cancelled plans) she is so inspiring going through her experience with cancer. I have a pleasure to meet her through my work at the Cancer center.. you can do this! Most important even on the worst days always go to your treatment good positive atitude, makes a real difference. Sending my love
Sending you all my love and prayers from Kansas city. You have best support with your fans outside of your home. I have just started to sew again and it felt great. You had come to mind and I am glad that I can be part of the prayer chain. Marlena
So sorry to hear your news. You are my favourite blogger and an inspiration to so many. s we’re on this journey with you and rooting for you.
so sorry for what you are going thru. There are lots of us out here who are praying for you and wishing you the stamina you will be needing. Keep the chin up and know we are here. Best wishes for a cure and success with the treatment
Don’t worry about being Mrs. Sickenly-inspiring-martyr lady. You are allowed to feel sad, angry, whatever the heck you feel. You are allowed to cry, rant, mourn, shake your fist at Heaven, create, ignore, whatever helps you cope with the diagnosis and treatment. Even in this difficult time, you do you. Don’t expect too much from yourself. Fighting cancer is a full time job. We all love you and are rooting for you.
Jillian, I’m so sorry you are having to deal with this. You are an amazing, upbeat, sparkling person. I know you can beat this. Stay strong. My prayers for strength or you and you family. And look forward so seeing more of your fun refashions!
You are already the brave lady-you are showing your emotions, sharing your fight, educating lots of us. Many people are praying for you and your family. God has your back, and with Him everything is possible! Stay strong and fight. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers♡
I’ve thought of you often since your last post. hoping your tumor was benign. Your post today was not what I hoped for you. I’m praying you are cured
Hugs and love to you.
So much love coming to you! I pray that our concern lifts you up. Read these comments again and again as needed.
I have cancer. I have been on chemo since April 1st. The lymph node under my arm was getting so small that my oncologist couldn’t even feel it. Then my husband and I both got Covid. I had to stop chemo until I was issued a release by the health department. I just started my chemo again last Wednesday. And, so it continues. You will have either a pet scan or a body scan to determine if you have cancer anywhere else. if it is only confined to ovary or ovaries, chemo will start killing cancer cells, you will lose your hair, and you will have your ovary and (probably) uterus removed. You will then have some radiation treatments and be fine. Your hair will start growing back after chemo.My hair is now about half an inch long. Gonna get some hair chalk and do it pink on chemo days. I am putting you in my prayer list. Praying for others seems to have helped me so much. I think I must be on a lot of lists, too. You are a joyful, creative, and inspirational soul…and this world is a better place with you in it. Never forget that you are loved and we will all be here for you on your best and worst days. BTW- we will BOTH get through this.
With hope, the odds don’t matter! You got this, and all my love and prayers are coming your way 😉
I don’t know you at all. I just love watching the magic you do with clothes. When I was a teen, my mom told me she would keep me in fabric if I sewed. She didn’t count on me asking for three patterns for every outfit, so I could combine this sleeve with that bodice and that collar. 😀 I don’t know what you believe, but I know that I couldn’t get through the hard things in this life without the hope of Jesus. I’m praying He meets you where you are at in this journey. xoxo
Thank you for keeping us informed. It really sucks and you are very courageous to want to keep the blog going. This is an inspiration to everyone and a lot of people are thinking of you. You are always smiling and upbeat and I can’t help but think that a positive attitude has a lot to do with beating and recovering from disease. Take time for yourself and you loved ones. Read a lot of positive and successful stories about cancer survivors. Be in the moment. You are a fantastic human being and you deserve a long and full life. Much love from Canada – Dominique
My prayers go out to you. I can’t imagine what you feel, and just how hard the journey may be from here. I wish you all the strength, courage and the ability to find joy in the small things despite facing this monster. Sending a big virtual hug.
You are one of my favorite bloggers and got me interested/and started in refashioning my clothes! I’ve always been wishing the best for you and I’m sorry its turned out this way. Please know we are all thinking of you!
My prayers are with you. You can beat this. I enjoy your blog and your adventures so much, I feel like I know you. We are going to be optimistic and hope for the best for you. Praying for your husband too. Happy thoughts
Jillian, I’ve never met you but have followed this blog for a few years now and I can honestly say I love you and honestly say I am crying and praying for you right now. I am old enough to be your mama and would be so proud if you were my daughter. You are brave, you are talented, you are so very funny, and gosh darn it! People like you! I don’t want to get all preachy, but I firmly believe God allows crap like this to happen for good somewhere/somehow. I believe you will beat this, get through this, and be even more talented and funny than you already are. And I am here to support you 100%.
ps- as a home health physical therapist, do every thing you can to get your exercise in even when you feel like crap. But listen to your body too. I know….it’s all confusing .
I have read your blog for SO long, and I’ve never commented. I love your style and refashioning, but I really love the story of you and your sweet husband and dogs. Please keep posting….even if it has nothing to do with fashion. I honestly really don’t care about that. Prayers for you and your journey and recovery.
Jillian – update aside for a moment, it is sooo good to see your face. You have been in my thoughts so often since your last post. I am glad the surgery over but am pretty ticked on your behalf about the results. I have followed you for so long that I have those weird like-a-friend feelings and know I’m one of many who are sending good, healing thoughts your way. Take good care of your amazing self and we will all be here rooting for you xoxoxoxo
I kept checking your Twitter feed and was hoping that no news was good news. I am so sorry to learn of your diagnosis. However, I am comforted by the fact that you have a loving and supportive husband and many people who care about you remotely. I hope that your medical team arrives at a safe and effective oncological protocol, and that you will be with us many, many more years to demonstrate your sewing talent and make us laugh with your funny quips and observations.
I’m so sorry that you’re having to deal with this. I have enjoyed your blog and your creations and upbeat attitude for many years. I wish you all the best.
I’m sorry that you’ve received this news, but you’re strong. You have a community of support, and you’ll get through this.
You are in my prayers, constantly. Stay strong, keep positive thoughts. Much love to you & Brian. Your in-laws are dear friends of mine, and I’ve followed your blog on Pinterest for a while.
So very sorry you have to go thru this, but know that you have already been a wonderful inspiration to all of us and we will be sending you healing thoughts and energy to get thru this and get back to your awesome self very soon!
You are an inspiration to so many. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Stay positive…you can beat this!
I know you get so many response but here is mine, I find you an amazing young woman and clearly you are so strong as you are able to articulate our blog even at this time. All of us readers will obviously be praying for you. It sucks and cancer. I realize everyone has a story with cancer and it sucks to be you. My husband is battling it too. Rest when you can and need to and most importantly accept people’s help. Take good care and praying for all of the best.
You got this. Don’t let the sadness get to you. I went through chemo, and so can you. Talk to others who have been through it. Talk to me if you want to. I’m here for you. You are going to make it. I believe in you. If you wind up needing a wig, I have some super fun ones I will give you so your super beautiful inside matches your outside.
Marla
You are so very cute, so very sweet and so very funny. We are all pulling for you as our friend. Prayers and good wishes from San Diego.♥♥♥
I’m sending you so much love! You will be a regular in my prayers. I just want you to know how much I really enjoy your blog and how much I really do care that you aren’t well. Know people care.
I am so sorry you are going through this Jillian. Yes some days will be very difficult but please be assured that I lift you in my thoughts and prayers daily. I am so glad to know that you have a supportive partner and family. I am a stage III breast cancer survivor and am forever grateful for supportive folks. Please accept their help – if it is what you need at the time. I have appreciated your posts and now I offer you encouragement in this next chapter you are facing.
Love and blessings to you…..Joan
Praying for you. My mother in law had stage IIII ovarian cancer and beat it two rounds of it. If you ever need someone to talk with that’s been there she is always open to be there for others.
You are such an amazing person & so inspirational to so many! Please know this! I have been following your blog for so long. I have no doubt with your positive spirit, sense of humor, and so much love you have to share, you will beat this!! F Cancer! We are all behind you! Sending you one big collective hug
I am so sorry and I hate this for you.
Sending you and your husband hugs and prayers.
I am so very, very sorry! You can beat this. We are rooting for you!
Stay strong! One of the things I love about your blog is how upbeat and authentically you come through. (The content is pretty good too. :)) I am so sorry to imagine you sad and laid low. Praying for you!
So extremely sorry Jillian, I’m not much of a prayer but will pray to whichever god is in charge for you. Can’t believe this has happened to you, please be gentle to yourself, put yourself first, don’t worry about your audience, we will all still be here whenever you feel up to posting so please rest and take it easy on yourself.
I am sending you as many virtual hugs and hankies as you need!
I echo everyone’s sentiments in saying F**K CANCER. If love and prayers from near and far could do it, you’d be cured last week! You’re blessed to have so many around you to love and care for you. Keep fighting the fight, and we will all look forward to the best news you can bring to us, as well as your adorable refashions! <3 from NY
I’m so sorry.
Sending you lots of love, hugs and strength from Texas.
Sending healing thoughts your way. Keep your chin up but know you are entitled to feel scared and sad at times. I have been a huge fan of yours for several years and look forward to seeing your new refashions. You are an inspiration to everyone.
Good luck with your prognosis, treatment and recovery. All good juju coming your way. ❤
So sorry. As you said you have lots of friends a fabulous husband and a fighting spirit. You rock.
I am so sorry the news isn’t what we hoped for. You have been and continue to be a bright light for so many of us. I love your refashions, your dachshund rescues and your precious love story that you have shared. I will continue to pray and send love your way.
I’m so sorry to hear this news. Wishing you a full recovery ♥️
But in the event that isn’t likely, please don’t pretend to be ok and put on a brave fighting face and pretend that everything is just continuing as normal. It’s ok to wind down and not be ok xo
Hang in there love. We all love you ❤
You’ve got this…I pray for direction and wisdom on this journey and most of all unexplainable peace and joy…keep your mind full of hope and protect yourself from the negative …research has come a long way and you can beat this…I will pray for you often my friend ..prayer makes the journey tolerable and the hope unending!
Jillian, I can’t tell you how much I hate to hear your news. I echo some other comments – I don’t even sew. I follow your blog because you bring such amazing creativity, positivity, and joy to the world. I think I speak for a lot of others when I say I wish I could send even some of that joy & light to you. I pray for you & Brian and I pray for healing you of this disease. I’m sending you much love and many hugs.
You got this! No doubt you will make the most amazing refashion head scarves! Positive vibes and a fuck you to cancer!
Well that is NOT what I thought you were going to say. That SUCKS! I am so sorry that you have to go through that! F cancer! That being said, I hope you feel better through this than you ever thought you could. I hope the outcome is better than you expected. I hope your friends come out in droves and pamper you and give you goodies and surprises every day. <3
Claire
Well this is just sh**
I don’t personally know you but feel have got to know you through your posts and this is heartbreaking to read. If love can get your through – you have got this. Much love from Australia xx
Sending you overflowing bundles of love and hope all the way from Brisbane, Australia. You’ve got this. And we’ve got you.
Damn! But double damn, what an outpouring of love for you! My friend always visualized cancer as the Death Star and chemo as Luke Skywalker beating it. It worked for her, she is cancer free and you will be too. Lean on everyone who offers, you are worth it.
I am so sorry to hear this news. I’ve followed you since your year of refashions so (as the saying goes) “long time listener, first time caller.” By the number of comments, well wishes and promise of prayers, you have an amazing following so, in turn, an amazing support group. I truly wish the best for you through your upcoming treatment. I suggest that you continue to use this forum as a way to document your journey. I’m sure you will not be surprised how helpful and cathartic it can be to share your story and it can inspire others. Unfortunately, cancer has now become a part of yours and Mr. Refashionista’s everyday life. Be sure to document your progress – the good and the bad – so that both of you can look back on this when you are on the other side hearing the word “remission”. Sending you positive vibes, well wishes and prayers. Cheers!
Such a shock. We’ll all be delighted when you feel you can post, it’s such a fun blog and with all these lovely comments it may well be therapeutic. Hugs for you both. XXX.
I was just thinking yesterday that we had not heard from you. Terrible news, indeed; please remember it’s OK to be mad or sad or pissed; you should have no guilt, and you have the right to tell anyone that demands you have a good attitude to fuck the right off.
Praying for you right now!
I had hoped for better news.i said a prayer for you today that God would touch you with His healing hand and give you the comfort and peace you need to get through this setback
I’m so very sorry. I’d like to say, “We are going to fight this. What do We do next?” But… we don’t actually know each other, and I am not there with you.
Please lean on those who are close to you. You ARE NOT ALONE!
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending you lots of positive vibes and hugs for when the vibes just ain’t working.
I’m so sorry to hear this news. I went through something similar a couple years ago and opted for a total hysterectomy, huge incision, gutted like a fish. Big difference though, mine came back non-cancerous. If you need a second opinion I want to recommend my gyn oncologist Dr. Kohler at MUSC Hollings Cancer Center in Charleston. He’s the best. If you need anything, I’m not too far away in Myrtle Beach, please reach out. I will continue to pray for you. You’ve got this!
Oh jillian, what a month you have been through. I had stage 3 breast cancer last year so I can relate to the uncertainty you are dealing with. You are so brave and you are an inspiration. This blog was a source of happiness in a terribke time for me last year and now hopefully it can be an escape for you during your coming treatments and through the comments you will see how much you have touched peoples lives. I wish you all the best from Australia and am looking forward to updates and refashions when you can. Xx
I am so sorry – for the diagnosis, for the heaviness and for the wading through the unknown. Praying for you and your family as you wait…
Sending you lots of love and positive thoughts from a big fan of yours in Sydney, Australia . Be kind to yourself and particularly your mind which may try and take you places that do not serve you. You are a wonderful inspiring woman and will have been living a full and loving life with your cancer long before even knowing it was there. It may take a lead role for a time in your life, but definitely doesn’t define you. Have courage
I am sad but hopeful just follow your doctor’s instructions.I said a prayer for you today that God would touch you with His healing hand and give you the comfort and peace you need to get through this setback..Keeping you in support.
I’ve been admiring your extreme talent with recreating beautiful clothing! With this talent I’m convinced you also have courage and strong will. Fight on!
Hugs, Kisses, Love, and Prayer
Know this my dear friend, you have been, still are and always will be an absolute inspiration not just with your sewing machine but also for the beautiful person you are. Love and Light
I don’t even know your name, but I have been following your posts for many years. Your refashioning has been an inspiration to me. This news is troubling, but be strong! My thoughts and prayers go out to your and your husband. Keep looking up. God is a healing God and is still into the healing business. Be thankful for each day and live it to the full. I look forward to more posts and encourage you to keep up the good work.
From a reader with chronic illness….put yourself and YOUR needs first. Do the things you must do to keep your mind in a good place. Watch for signs of depression. Prayers up for you and Mr. Refashionista. ❤
What a horrible shock for you. Thinking of you over the coming months and sending you love and light xx
I hope you don’t mind this, but FUCK cancer. Sending you all the best wishes for successful treatment and few side effects. Thank goodness cancer research continues to produce better and better results. I hope you will accept love and positive thoughts from a stranger.
Not the news any of us hoped for. Find the best doctors you can and do what they say. Think positive thoughts. Know that prayers are being said on your behalf. ❤️❤️
Fuck cancer! Kick butt and take names! We are here when you have the energy or need the distraction, and support you when you need time for self care. Thinking so many happy thoughts for you!!
I am so sorry for you. But you have been shaping your life with humor and colors, you’ll keep doing it!! Let us know how you feel and please, please, do the things that you love and make you feel good and take care of yourself. You kept my spirits high during an hard time of my life, I cannot immagine how to reciprocate, but please know that me, from Pisa, Italy, I am sending you and your wonderful Mr Refashionista good vibrations 🙂
Best wishes and love to you darling girl xxx
Well, shoot! Praying for you as you do battle!
Hi, so sorry to hear your news. My husband was diagnosed with bowel cancer during lockdown here in UK, and it has spread to his liver. He doesn’t smoke or drink alcohol, we eat a varied home cooked diet, and he is very strong and active. Now he is having aggressive chemo for the tumours in his liver. So far he is feeling reasonably well, and if it wasn’t for Covid we would be out having some fun in between treatments.
I am wishing for you to have excellent results from your treatment. There are so many people who make a fantastic recovery from cancer, even after a pretty awful prognosis, so keep hoping for the best. You have a lot on your side.
Best wishes.
Prayers upon prayers upon prayers! Wishing you & the hubby the very best and all the strength you can muster to battle through this challenging time. Cancer sucks!!! I hope you kick its ass! I’m sure your hubby will be right by your side throughout, but please be sure to remind himself not to neglect himself so that he can be at his best for you. Caregiving is a labor of love, most certainly, but it can be very difficult at the same time. Caring for my love during his battle with pancreatic cancer was the most rewarding as well as the most stressful time of my life. My heart just breaks for you both that you even have to endure this horrible experience in the first place. Just keep positive thoughts as much as you are able to and know that we’re all pulling for you. People who don’t really know you but feel as though we do & care as though we do!!!
Well, damn. I am so sorry that is happening to you. I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer in my 30s. It’s a scary time, that’s for sure. Lean on your people, ask for the help you need. Best wishes always.
Sending you hugs and continuing prayers, dear girl. I have walked your path, and although it was so difficult, God was with me throughout. I’ll never not be grateful for the gifts of each day. Rest, trust in your dedicated medical team, and know that you are loved by all of us, your refash family, more than you can ever know.
This news sucks donkey d*cks fifty times a day. (Sorry if that’s too explicit, that’s just how I feel about it.) Please focus on your recovery and send out blog posts only when you feel like it. I’ll be praying for all the best for you.
Sending you love and virtual hugs.
I’m so sorry and sad to read this but your spirit is indomitable and this cancer is gonna lose. You have so many people pulling for you. xoxo
Sending love, light and healing thoughts and wishes, Jillian! Also strength, for you and your loved ones, to carry you through the hard moments, and to celebrate the triumphs. I’m so sorry you’ve been burdened by this beast. I hate this disease.
Continued prayers for you!
I know how strong you are and are going to be. You are in my thoughts.
There are no perfect words to say here, so instead I will say what you have done already in your life! I accidentally found you on Facebook I think. I have so enjoyed your creative artistry of redesigning clothes. You have inspired me to look outside the box. You have shared your joyous spirit with so many. Your journey is not over, and who knows how much further your road will go, but knowing that you have inspired others makes your journey no matter the length a meaningful one. Not many people can truly say that! Keep your sunny spirit bright and your thoughts healthy. I wish you only the best and look forward to whatever you post, whether clothes or cancer……maybe clothes for cancer? Maybe start re-fashioning hats for cancer patients? Continued blessings to you and your family!
Good thoughts coming your way. Be your own best advocate, and fight to get the best treatment.
I am truly sorry that you are going through this..I have high hopes that you will beat this. You are strong and have a sprint that lifts up to others.
I will keep you in my prayers and heart for a recovery for you.
My heart goes out to you, as does my love and prayers. I know MANY cancer survivors and you are now among them. Identify yourself with the healing.
Sending love
Jillian, I have followed your blog for years and almost feel like I know you. When I read you got married I felt as happy for you as I would for one of my friends. We are all interested in your life, highs AND lows. You have an amazing support system in Mr. Refashionista and your friends and family, but also in your readers. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers and however else we show support. You will get through this. We love you.
I will be praying for you. This link has a list of Healing scripture to pray over yourself.
https://www.hopefaithprayer.com/scriptures/healing-scriptures-dodie-osteen/
Sending love, hugs, and all the positive thoughts to you and your husband.
Loving thoughts & prayers to you & your hubby!
So sorry to hear that the news wasn’t as you would have hoped but you’ve got a lot of people around you offering love and support and you have a fabulous attitude. You can do this. Sending you all my love, strength and positive vibes from Durham, UK xxxx
I’m so sorry. You’re in my thoughts and I hope for the best for you! I’ve followed you for a long time and enjoy your blog so much. You actually featured my wedding dress that I refashioned from my mom many years ago.
Jillian, this was certainly not the news I prayed you’d receive. That being said, you are strong, you are surely LOVED by so many, as all the posts show, you are wise. Keep your positive attitude, your sense of humor, and most of all your faith in God. I just feel in my heart you’ve got this.
Maybe start a hand sewing project you can take with you to chemo treatments and have near when you want to just hang out on the couch. Don’t worry about us, well be here when you’re up to posting.
Be well sweet girl you are in God’s hands, trust him even if the timing isn’t yours.
My love and prayers to you and your family.
Sending healthy and healing thoughts your way.
I am so sorry that this has happened. Yours is a lovely voice and one of the few blogs I actually read (rather than just scrolling through the photos :). I am sending you good vibes and wishing the best for you and your family. All the strength and all the prayers to you.
Prayers being said for you and your hubbie. God does work miracles. Have faith.
You are absolutely an inspiration already. Fighting vibes to you and lots of love to you and the mister.
I’m so sorry for what is happening to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please feel free to share this journey on your blog. We all love and adore you. We want to be here for you in whatever way we can.
Jillian , you’ve got this, fight! I promise to uphold you in thought and prayer daily❤️
You don’t really know us all but you’ve so graciously shared yourself and talents with us.
We’re all rooting for you. We all love you.
Many many prayers for you and Brian.
I’m so sorry to hear. Your have a journey ahead so lean in your support network, and use your country’s ovarian cancer society (sounds like your hubby had already found them, well done him 🙂 ). Sending positive vibes from Australia.
I am so sorry, Jillian! I love following your blog. I hope that you have the energy during your treatment to escape into your creative side as i think it will help you… Again, I am so sorry!
Praying for n your family
I’m praying for you and try to stay positive . I look forward to when you post again. Lynn
I’m sorry! You will beat this!!!prayers and love to you!!!
I’m so sorry Jillian (((HUGS))) and prayers headed your way girl Incase you want to do some reading, Dr. Josh Axe helped his mom with stage 4 cancer holistically. I’m a firm believer in a holistic approach to healing and just thought I’d share
I’m so sorry you are having to go through this! You CAN beat this! Keep your positive attitude and tell cancer your will BEAT it. I know you will fight and gain strength from all your fans that will be sending you prayers and love.
I’m praying for you. Even though this really sucks, it’s good that you are looking at the wonderful people and circumstances in your life during this tough time. That attitude, plus prayer and a sense of humor will get you through this. I’ve enjoyed your blog, creativity, sense of humor and attitude for a while now. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
You already are our inspiration Jillian. Now is the time for you to fight and accept all the positivity being sent your way. Big hugs lovely lady x
My heart hurts for you. You’re in my prayers. Continue to be hopeful and brave.
Jillian, your spirit and determination will lead you thru this event in your life. I know you will tackle this like the ugliest dress you made into an incredible beauty. We all want only the best outcome for you. You constantly show how well you have overcome all of your challenges to date. You will overcome this one too!! Take time to heal, let others help you. I’m sending Florida prayers. We all love you (Brian too). Your rock.
I’m so sorry. A big hug to you and all of my best thoughts.
This stinks. But you rock. I hope you just write about whatever, it will be awesome because of your humor and perspective. I always look forward to your posts. You are inspiring.
Believe me, this isn’t going to be anything like a lifetime movie. My doctor told me when I had breast cancer over TEN years ago that it wouldn’t be as bad as I imagined. Of course I didn’t believe him. Of course he was right. The journey is extremely emotional and I learned a lot about myself. I was brave at times and a wreck at other times. It doesn’t matter in the end how amazing we are, how inspirational we can be, or if we simply fall to pieces from time to time. The end result is what is important–we get our life back and move on to better things, we realize we have amazing family and friends, we grow proud at our strength, we cry when we are sad, and we laugh at all the funny parts. Best wishes.
Praying for you. I believe that you can beat this.
Nobody ever wants to hear the word “cancer”. I’m so sorry to read about your diagnosis. Please remember that it doesn’t define who you are. Inside you are still a wonderful person and always will be. I look forward to seeing your future posts, wherever they may lead to.
You’ll be in kept in my prayers and thoughts. Take care and keep your chin up.
Hugs from a friendly stranger,
Sarah
Take a health break and come back to your adoring refashionist fans when you feel up to blogging. No need to feel bad about taking a break. I’m sending lots of positive thoughts and good health mojo and hugs.
You are strong will woman, you will get thru this!!! Sending well wishes and prayers your way!!!
Fear not! You have the strength of a lion….. the heart of an eagle…. the survival instincts of a cheetah… You have the love of your husband, your family, your friends and fans…. so hang in, hang on… keep on trucking…. the best is yet to be…. Nothing is written in stone….. Hugs, TEMA
Sending the best, most healing vibes your way. No matter what, you got this!
Wow, so sorry. I’m saying a prayer for your right now.
I know all the gloom and doom. Stage 4 ovarian for my sister with a 5% mortality rate. She is 100% in remission. Praying for you to be 100% clear soon.
Lots of sincere thoughts and best wishes Jillian from another long time fan. All the very best for your future health from Canada!
First off, my heart goes out to you and Brian. What a garbage year this has been for you. Prayers to you for a full recovery. You have a lot of virtual friends wishing you well. Hugs!
Hugs and prayers your way. Stay positive!
We all love and care about you! Make sure to take good care of yourself and stay strong. You have lots of support and people sending you positive and healing thoughts. ❤️❤️
Jillian, I’m way north of you (in Toronto, Canada) but right beside you in spirit. When you can’t find the resources and resilience in yourself to be strong, let others be there for you and to be strong for you. Know how much all your readers and followers–like me–care about you! With love, Lauren
I have been a follower of yours for a long time. You have inspired me into my own refashions. My prayer are with you and your family through this journey. You are making a difference in peoples lives.
Wishing you so much love and strenght, I think you are really very brave and yes inspiring too to share your feelings and try to go on.
I want you yo get well with all my heart .
Love, Helga
I’ve followed you for a long time. This is my first time commenting. I really admire you and I look forward to hearing about the ups and downs of your journey and I’m sending all my hopes and prayers to keep you strong. I don’t care what you write about…I just love reading anything you write so please keep it up.
This sucks for you. I love and appreciate your attitude. Yes, we want to see your refashionista work, but we also want to know about what’s going on in your life. We want to celebrate with you, and cry with you. You have inspired me to take out my sewing machine and attempt stuff. But even more your words and attitude in this post inspire me to live in each day, to be kinder (we don’t know what battles people are fighting), and to appreciate every small thing. I’m not usually a “silver lining” person – but will work on that! I will be praying for you.
Praying for your successful treatment and full recovery.
First of all, so sorry. This sucks for you to have to go through. Thank you for keeping us around. I promise to send positive thoughts/energy your way! Just so you know, I don’t show up for the fashion. I show up for you. You are engaging, smart and funny. Yes, you are talented with a fashion but okay, I will out myself, I don’t even own a sewing machine. I come for the great writing and I love hearing about your dogs, boyfriend and your life. Hang in there.
Jillian, my prayers are with you, your hubby, and your furry boys. Lean on God and ask to be led by Him to make right decisions involving your medical care. Look at the positive, practical advice from your readers. They came up with some good ones. I like the designated notebook idea. I agree, to continue to work is very important for your morale and keeps you happily busy. Especially knowing that you have such a loyal fan base. We all care about you immensely, you come into our homes to visit with your creations and banter. We love it and we love you !
Warm thoughts and prayers for the best possible outcome for you Jillian.
Dear Jillian,
You have an army of well-wishers who are sending love and good thoughts through the ether to you and Brian.
Stay strong!
Just added you to my prayer list, Jillian. Your positive attitude will do wonders to help you mentally and physically. Thank goodness for supportive hubby’s!! The puppies will also take good care of you, I am sure!
Glad you plan to keep doing your blog – I love to see the magic you perform on some truly awful looking articles of clothing!
You are loved! I had to scroll 4 EV-ER to get to the comments box. Know that your readers support you. Thank heaven for Mr Refashionista! I am putting you in my prayers. Keep a good and aggressive attitude. Hugs.
Praying for you and a complete and speedy recovery❤
Jillian,
You are loved and appreciated by all who follow your blog.
Your beautiful smile and “can do” attitude are amazing.
I’m sure those cute little dachshunds will be looking after you.
Renée
You are loved! I had to scroll 4 EV-ER to get to the comments box. Know that your readers support you. Thank heaven for Mr Refashionista! I am putting you in my prayers. Keep a good and aggressive attitude. Hugs.
Sending good vibes and wishing you a good recoveryYour creativity gives us so much joy! When I go thrifting I see something and think, I wonder what Refashionista would do with this-something cool, I bet!
Take care of yourself.
Sending hugs to you both though we’ve never met. Hope and caring from Canada.
Jillian, this really F****ng sucks. I am so sorry you will have to go through this – another horrible thing in this horrible year. I wish for you and Brian lots of healing and strength. You have so many people you’ve never met who are wishing these same things for you. Fight as long as you can. Know that we are all sending you fighting strength. Much love, Kate
Please only send new refashions if you REALLY want to. But even if you don’t please keep us updated about how you are doing. We all care about you and feel that we know you. You have added so much to our lives with your projects and how you present them to us. The are fun and uplifting. We will keep you in our hearts and prayers and please know that we are rooting for you and your family May God bless you with healing. A big hug to you from Colorado!
Hugs and prayers, and the philosophy that 2020 sucks and 2021 will be a wonderful year, you will fight this.
Sending you lots and lots of love and cancer killing vibes! Thank you so much for sharing this with us. We ♥️ you! (and you too Mr. Refashionista!)
Jillian, words fail me. Seeing your adorable face in the photo and then reading such horrible news. I had so hoped for a different and positive outcome.
Sending you good vibes and healing energy across the miles! Meditate on this and envision yourself completely healed and cancer free. You’ve got this!! xx
I am so sorry to hear your news and I will be thinking of you regularly as you fight this horrible battle. You’re incredibly lucky to have the support network you have, use them and let them support you as you fight this cancer hard and wholeheartedly. Sending you love from the UK x
Jillian you are so loved. Every time I open my mail and there is no email from you I think of you and pray and send loving thoughts your way. I am overwhelmed by the support you have from your Internet audience. They all hold you in their hearts and hope. I am so grateful on your behalf that you have Brian with you and that he is so supportive and loving. Wishing for you, hoping for you. Just one among hundreds and hundreds of people who care and are doing the same. Fight, Jillian… Do not give in to despair. Look to a better future…
Love and Light…
Such sad news but already have the prayer angels on it. Yesterday I was thinking of you wondering how you were doing. Today we know. Without making light of your circumstances, I wanted to thank you for giving me the courage to get out of my comfort zone and try something new. Today for the first time I took an old white blouse that I really liked but was looking dingy and dyed it a beautiful chambrey color. It looks great and I will now be wearing it quite q bit more. So once again, thanks.
Praying for a quick recovery, I need you to keep inspiring me!
A healthy mind contributes a lot to a healthy body. There are new breakthroughs in cancer treatment everyday. Trust in your doctors and try to find some calm in this storm. “If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.” –Lao Tzu
I’m also a long time follower of your blog. I am so, so sorry you have to go through this but I know you can beat it. I follow a woman on Instagram in her 60’s who had ovarian cancer too. Treatment was not easy but she is now healthy and loving life. Your age and healthy lifestyle is a plus. Prayers for a successful outcome and many years of happiness down the road.
I too was a poster child of healthy living. All was well until cancer struck. This is a club I never wanted a membership in. It truly sucks. My mantra was…laugh a lot, cry a lot and pray a lot. May God give you and Brian peace, warmth and joy in your hearts.
I have been following you for years, through old boyfriend and your wonderful reinvention of yourself and the new relationship that is so supportive and loving. A friend of mine has had a very rare cancer, one she has survived way past the few years anyone else had ever lived and it was from researching her own information. I agree that not following your typical cancer blog out there isn’t good but there is power in knowledge so thats something to think about. The good thing is you eat well so you are conditioned to choosing food that will help you fight this cancer. Get a blender, learn to love ginger, I use ginger water in all my regular water as i have gastic issues. If we can be your saflety net , a place where when you need a group of fans to applaud you or just come to vent then I am proud to be one of those fans.
You are the brave movie of the week lady! Being sad and scared doesn’t mean you aren’t that woman. By heart is heavy along with you, but I am sending as many good vibes your way as humanly possible (maybe as many as dogs can send!)
Seriously, I think you are amazing and I am thinking of you. Please allow Brian and your family to take care of you because they love you.
Best, Tara
Oh damn! I am sorry to hear this news. I have been following you for many years, and although I probably couldn’t replicate your re-do’s, the novice sewer that I am, I love to see them, and enjoy your blog. From my nurses perspective, do your best to keep your mind busy when it wanders on the wrong path. Cry the tears when they need to come out, lean on those who are near and offer their shoulder. Take the meals and eat up the love they are baked for you with. Trust in your medical team. Let that chemo kick the cancers ass and do your best to keep your eyes on the path to recovery, however long that may be. The road may be bumpy and suck for a while, but always remember: The Comeback is Always Greater than the Setback. Thoughts and prayers will be with you.
I’m so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I hope your test results show a kind of cancer that responds well to chemo. I have come to look forward to your witty posts and hope you will be able to continue writing for many more years.
I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Mr. R as you begin this difficult journey. I’m so thankful you have such an awesome support system….you’re not alone in this. My husband and I have had many conversations about you and your awesome year(s) of refashioning a dress a day. You showed tenacity and will power to keep moving forward, even when it was difficult. I pray that same strength of character will help you on this path; and when you feel weak, that your husband and friends can be your strength.
I’m so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I was diagnosed with cancer about 2 years ago so I know a little about what you’re going through. Even though life has become a large bucket of shit, it’s important to have hope that things will get better. Cancer is the best club you never wanted to be part of. You will meet wonderful people and experience kindness from all directions. I wish you the best of luck with your treatments and a lightning-fast journey into remission.
Thank you for your honesty. My heart goes out to you and the struggles ahead. Post when you can because we all love your posts and creativity. Rest when you need to for as long as you need to. I am glad you have a wonderful husband and friends by your side. We are your invisible friends, but remember we love you.
So very sorry to hear this!! Have been and will continue to pray for you and your whole support and wellness systems ❤️ Please know you are ALREADY that inspirational lady, and will only become more so!! Cheering you on and looking forward to reading whatever you have to say, whether fashion or tough stuff
Speechless. My mind can’t comprehend it. But I will definitely be thinking of you and the mister, and praying for only good things out of this.
Love and prayers for you, hope you get well soon!
I have followed your blog journey for a long time, but seldom have commented. I am so very sad that you are going through this terrible time. Words are so inadequate. You are strong and your strength and the love of your hubs and friends will carry you. I will continue to enjoy hearing whatever it is that want to..or need to…say. I send you light for the jouney.
We all love you Jillian and if positive vibes, prayers, and loving thoughts are a cure for anything, you will be good as new very soon!! One day at a time, my friend! You got this and we got you. ❤️
So sorry you are having to deal with this on top of all the stupidity and craziness 2020 has brought upon us. Praying for your healing.
I wish you strength and I am sending out healing vibes!
{{{{hugs}}}} 2020 just sucks all around. I have an appointment with hematology/oncology on Friday to, hopefully, find out if I have lymphoma or leukemia. Hopefully not but the way 2020 has been I’m not very hopeful. A friend in the gaming community I belong to keeps saying “This Too Shall Pass”! Sometimes I just wanna smack them cause I’ve already got several autoimmune diseases and a progressive & degenerative genetic disease.
Hopefully we’ll both get through this. You’ll be able to keep making fantabulous stuff and I’ll keep up cycling clothes into face masks! Currently trying to make halloween ones for the elementary school near me.
Jillian, thank you so much for allowing us to accompany you on this painful journey. I’ve been checking your website daily for news just in case I missed your update. So very sorry that Clyde wasn’t what we had hoped for. We will be sending you strength and hope. Please remember to reach out and grab onto it whenever you need it.
I’m so sorry for the agony you are going through with this health challenge. You have such a positive outlook on life in general, and that will stand you in good stead now. Life is lived one day at a time; make the most of every one – which I believe you were already doing and will continue to do. It has always struck me how much elder wisdom you have in such a young body, and that is apparent yet again. Wishing you continued strength and positivity and support, and many good things yet to come in your life.
Praying for you!
Jillian, I am sending you love, strength and comfort! I’m so sorry to hear this, and I’ll be rooting for your recovery.
I am so sorry to hear your news BUT I am so glad that you have a wonderful husband, friends and family to help you through. Now beat cancer’s ass!
Kristy b
That should have said healing light. Not headlight. Oy.
Well, this f-ing sucks. You are so beautiful, creative, talented, and all-around amazing. This community is here for you. If there’s anything we can do to support you, we will.
Sending you all the love and headlight light I can like I’m a dang carebear!
I’ve been following your blog for a while now. I’m so sorry you have to deal with this. I’m a colon cancer survivor who has just been diagnosed again (breast) after 6 years cancer free. I know how it feels when you hear that diagnosis.
Hang in there and remember you are otherwise healthy, you have a strong spirit and lots of love and support.
Research all you can, knowledge is power. Don’t be afraid to question anything or anyone.
Take care of yourself, and know that you have the support and prayers of so many.
My heart goes out to you. I love your blog and you inspired me to try my own hand at refashioning.
That is shit news. I’m sorry this is happening to you and wish you a speedy recovery.
I’ve followed your blog for years and gotten a ton of tips and tricks and would love to show my gratitude for that, especially now. Do you have a ko-fi account or a patreon? I would love to support you any way I can.
My heart hurts for you but you are such a fighter and have such realistic optimism! You will do whatever it takes, along with your husband, to get through this!! I wish I could give you a hug and bring you homemade chicken noodle soup. You will be in my prayers. Love, Nancy from Plymouth Michigan. ❤️
I hate this! Been following your blog for years and I just love you! I am praying for you.
Thank you for your post. I have been thinking and praying for you. I am so grateful that you have such a loving and caring husband. You have a lot of life yet to live, cancer is heavy, I have felt it myself. Let your loved ones help you, that was the hardest lesson for me to learn. God bless you, keep us (your readers) posted when you can, and when you can’t, please know that we are lifting you up in prayers of healing and comfort.
Thank you for sharing this. My thoughts are with you all the time. Even though I only know you through your posts I wish you so much good and happiness. If you can and are able we are all here for you and I know I hope to see update posts because I am rooting so hard for you. xx
While I don’t have cancer, I do suffer from depression. When I am down, I just tell myself, “tomorrow will be better”. Also, don’t be a superwoman, ask for help when you need it. You might find that there are lots of people out there that will be willing to help when needed. Stay positive, and know that everyone will be pulling for you.
I’m so so sorry you are facing this. You are a inspiring joyful person who does not deserve this, who does? Sending you all the positive thoughts and hoping you kick cancers arse soon.x
Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear! I am so sorry. Count on daily prayers from me and my friends and family. Twenty years ago my best friend was diagnosed with stage 2C ovarian cancer. She did the surgery and all the chemo and is healthy as a horse today. Don’t read the stats. That is old information. Things have changed and they have much better interventions today. You are so strong, capable and resourceful. You make something out of nothing everyday. You will take this situation and upcycle it into something fabulous. The dog, the precious hubby and your friends and family are here for you to lean on when you need to. You can do this! You have an army of fans on your side. Feel the energy and prayers we are sending you. Heal this precious Refashionista!!!!
I too was diagnosed with cancer this year. My surgery was 3/12, right as the world was beginning to shut down.The fear, shock, and sadness were very real. But so is the fight. You have an amazing life full of blessings and a platform of followers full of support for you. Lean on your people whenever you need to. They’d want you to. And it does help to feel that kind of love, particularly on the harder days. If I can beat cancer in the time of COVID, I KNOW you can too. Prayers to you for swift healing and excellent doctors!
God Bless you pretty lady. We all will keep you in our prayers and in our hearts.
You are just a ray of sunshine in my life. I am sending you lots of love & positive thoughts for a full recovery.
so so sorry to hear this, I am praying for you, I believe you are a fighter and you can beat this!!!
I was so, so sad to read this. It truly breaks my heart. I am sending positive vibes your way. I know you will kick cancer to the curb.
Sending you so many positive vibes x your blog has brightened many a day for me x you clearly have so much love and support around you x I hope your treatment goes well x
Cancer sucks! You’re awesome! I believe in miracles. You’ve been on my mind and in my heart and prayers for the last few weeks. I have a friend around your age and she’s fighting breast cancer, well KICKING it’s butt-just like you’re gonna do. I feel like I know you and I hate this. Prayers for you and the sweet hubby!
Many heartfelt prayers coming your way.
Thank you for sharing. I went for my annual mammogram 2 1/2 years and was called back for an ultrasound and everything after that is kind of a blur. I was told everything would be fine cuz it was stage one and I had no history of cancer in my family. But within 2 weeks I was on an operating table fOr what ended up being stage two metastatic breast cancer with 6 lymph nodes removed. When I went for my follow up I was told they wanted a second pathology report before starting any kind of treatment. I too eat “gross” stuff my husband won’t eat because I eat healthy and exercise regularly. Long story short 2 months later all tests were done and was told no chemo and no radiation only a pill for the next 5 years and here I am.. I will pray that all goes well and that you have lots of courage and strength to see you both through.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Definitely not what I was expecting to read. I am so very sorry and definitely you will be in my prayers (strong believer – He does miracles).
Stay strong!!! Continue your healthy habits, while they may not have prevented they most certainly will help fight this!!
God bless you and stay strong. My thoughts are with you.
Terrible news but not a death sentence! My mother has had three separate cancer diagnoses in the last 33 years and survived and gone into remission all three times! Do what the doctors recommend and stay hydrated, with iv fluids if you have to, as the chemo sometimes makes it hard to keep anything down including liquids. Please email or message me any questions or anything you’d like me to ask my mother from someone who has been through this and come through the other side. Please make sure your mr has support too it is really hard watching someone you love go through something so difficult and not being able to fix it. Much love and I am serious if you need to talk to someone don’t hesitate.
Love you and wish all the best. I’ve seen over and over that you can do anything
You give so many good ideas along with easy to understand directions. You make it so easy for us to try things on our own. Keep hanging in there, lean on your friends and family, especially your sweet hubby, and take the strength you need from all sources. It will help, and will make them all feel like there is something they can do, which is what we all want. I’ve learned this the hard way, but at least I did learn. Reach out for, and cling to God’s hand. His is the only peace that passes our understanding, is free, and is there for the asking. I will be lifting you up in prayer, and like so many others, I am here for you. It will be hard, but you got this! It’s time to “fight like a girl”!!!
I am an RN who spent a lot of years working in oncology and I want to reassure you that the state of cancer medicine has never been better. You will be in excellent hands and your healthy nutritional status will serve you well as your underlying health is robust. I know this is a shock and you will feel like crap before you feel better but if you have to have cancer; now is the best time to have it. You are loved and many people will be keeping you in their hearts.
https://www.cancerresearch.org/immunotherapy/cancer-types/ovarian-cancer#trials
I have been so worried about you. Thinking about you and praying for you. Do not give up hope. Have faith in your physician. I will continue to pray for you nightly. Please keep,us posted.
I’m so sorry to hear this. Rather google prognosis, I would spend a lot of time googling “new treatments for metastatic ovarian cancer’ and looking into things like immunotherapy for cancer. Also, find yourself a few survivors who are very similar to you in demographics and diagnosis. Those people will be a lifetime for you. This year really has been beyond belief. You know your blog readers will be reading (anxiously!) everything you write. All the best. You can do this.
I’m really sorry Jillian. As another person said here, this really effing sucks. When my sister-in-law got her BRCA positive test she was going to be proactive and have a total hysterectomy. They discovered stage three cancer during the surgery. We were all very scared. It’s been three years and she is well and healthy. Aside from the good medical care she had, she was kind to herself. Superwoman is not needed here. Please give yourself whatever you need whenever you need it. Your husband sounds like just the best person to be by your side for this. I’ll be sending you both positive thoughts and prayers.
This breaks my heart so much. You are going to have good days where you feel like the Life Time Movie heroine, and days where you don’t…and that is ok and totally normal. I will be praying for you and your family (and especially you and hubby). Just take it one step at a time and do whatever you need to.
I will personally fight anyone that makes negative comments. I’ve been following this blog for 7 or 8 years now. Sending good vibes your way ❤️❤️
Lots of people love you! Like me. Like your man. etc. etc. AND!, you have health insurance! We will be following whatever you post. You are not alone.
Oh goodness, I’m so sorry. I’m wishing you the best.
Thank you for sharing your diagnosis. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 1996. I was 48 y.o. I read everything I could read to become informed about what my options were. I opted for a bilateral mastectomy. 4 nodes were removed – no chemo, no radiation, no muscle tissue removed. I had breast reconstruction and still have saline implants. For me surgery was the cure, so I hope you keep the surgery option in mind. Much love to you, Mr. R, and family. I look forward to your continuing. Such a trooper!
Sending you love and light, doll.
Oh my, I am so very sorry that you and everyone close to you have to ever be dealing with this, much less in the year of EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE, aka 2020. I would love to help you some way beyond thoughts and prayers. You have been such an inspiration to me in giving me the confidence to use my sewing machine. As long as you’re able to write, I will read. When you need to take a break, I will be patient for your return. If it helps to simply know that someone in Minnesota has come to appreciate and admire you, confidently know that is true.
Jillian, I have been following you for years, and feel like I know you. You always make me laugh. Please lean on your family, friends and followers now. If good wishes mean anything, you will beat this. I am sending love and good thoughts to you and your family <3
Sending love, hugs, and all the positive thoughts to you and your husband. Please keep us posted.
Lots of love and prayers are coming your way. You are strong. You have got this!
I have never had a cancer diagnosis so I’m clueless about how that feels for you.No matter the outcome it is serious and will require many months of treatments. You are feisty and brave.i pray that your surgeons will be as successful at refashioning a cancer free Gillian as you have been with you hundreds of makeovers. Your journey will be as unique as yourself. Fall apart when you need to. You have a worldwide community who are rooting for you.
Just wanted to say how truly sorry I am to read this news, and to wish you well in the days ahead. I’m glad you have your loving husband Brian, and all of your dear friends to give you their love in support when you’ll need it most. We’ll be waiting patiently for you to tell us, “All clear!”
All of the love and force for you to get through this. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through but you sound so positive which is the first step.
Thank you for sharing. That all I can say…
So sorry to hear your news. I’m grateful for your supportive husband and circle of friends to help you through. Hoping for a speedy recovery and sending positive thoughts.
Been thinking about u for the past few days. So sorry to hear the news. Though not good news, medicine does perform miracles — and also good treatment! Hoping fir a really good outcome. Stay strong and remember, we r all thinking of u and your family. Hugs, Claire
I am so sorry to hear this news. In 2018 I also had surgery for a gynecological cancer. Like you, I was living a very healthy lifestyle by exercising and eating right. It just seemed so unfair. Lots of tears and anxiety. But one thing I remember my oncologist telling me when we were talking about those scary statistics that you find online was that those healthy things I had been doing would help me because I didn’t have a lot of the comorbidities that many patients with a similar diagnosis may have had. I will be keeping you in my prayers. Sending love from a fellow refashionista and “cancer club” member.
Oh honey, hugs to you. I don’t pretend to know what you’re going through, and I would send you the strength of a thousand Wonder Women if I could. Keep your amazing husband and group of friends & family close by you, they’ll be such a great source of support, and you stay strong! Thank you for your blogs over the years, I’ll be here sending you positive, healing vibes!
Three time survivor here one was a gynecological caner too- and I agree with everything Ginger says! Everything. Don’t be afraid of getting 3rd or 4th opinions either. Super ditto about the billing – check over each one, call – ask for payments plans if needed. Chemo may be too much and keep your hubby in the loop for this too!
My heart is with you!
Also, awesome support groups on the online Facebook groups!
2020 can suck it!! You will get through this. It will be a challenge but you can handle it!!! You’re already on the right path with your healthy lifestyle and I have no doubt that you are a fighter. We’re all behind you and supporting you!!
I’m so sorry to hear this news. Wishing you strength and a path to a clean bill of health. Write your blog when and how you choose to; we’ll be here.
Is there an address we can send you cards?
Jillian, so sorry to hear this. You have an army of online supporters praying for your health!
Sending prayers and positive vibes your way. I’m so sorry for this news. You got this, it will not get you!
Hi Jillian, I am sorry to hear your news but believe you will beat this (I am picturing Sigourney Weaver in “Alien” saying something about blowing ‘it’ the #%@& to outer space). I have been reading your blog for several years. You have and continue to inspire me to try different refash ideas including my first dye project! Please know you have many people who support you. I am sending positive vibes and well wishes every day ❤️
I am so sorry to read your news, but please know that this does not mean you won’t recover and get better – I am frankly amazed at what is possible today in relation to cancer treatment and survival. My thoughts, love and prayers are winging their way to you! xx
I’m so sorry to hear this and will add you to my list of prayers. You are always so upbeat and fun in your blog and it is a joy to read it. Keep your self surrounded by people who will love you and take care of you. Stay strong and thank you for sharing this with us. The more prayers, the better.
As someone who has been in the Psychic field for many years and in the Psychic community for even longer, it is our shared consensus that what you are experiencing is, indeed, disappointing, but it is also our opinion that you will recover from this terrible disease. I don’t feel that you will succumb to it, although you will have several months of treatment to look forward to. I’m so sorry for your diagnosis……..keep your spirits up and look at each day as the blessing that it is. God be with you and your very supportive family.
I’ve been rhinking of you today. Thank you for sharing the news. I’m so sorry about your bad news. So happy about your good news.
Please, please consider that if you have this illness despite of a healthy life, it may all be because of the thoughts.. please consider the alternatives to the traditional medicine. Louise Hay for example.
I admire you a lot, your work and your humor. I think you are now in front of your destiny and it is so difficult. I keep you in my heart. Send lots of energy and health.
I got a really bad breast cancer diagnosis 3 years ago. I thought the same thing. I can’t have cancer – I eat right, I exercise, I take care of myself. My oncologist told me that it was a good thing I was so healthy as it meant I was going to be starting from a better place than a lot of patients. I continued as much as my regular lifestyle as possible during all of the treatments and did a pretty good job at that.
Once you get the correct diagnosis/treatment plan, please get a second opinion from another onocologist that is NOT in the same hospital/medical group of your current oncologist. The second opinion isn’t to discredit your current oncologist, it’s to confirm the treatment plan or to discover other options. I was lucky to have met a Dr in a completely separate department at my current hospital who gave me that advise.
The internet can be your friend or your worst enemy in terms of doing cancer research. Talk to your doctor and also the nurses. They see and know a lot of information.
Write everything down at appointments and during treatment sessions. I have a small notebook just for my appointments where I keep all of my notes – drs, facilities, insurance.
Look at every bill you get from your insurance company. Scrutinize the charges. They make mistakes and it can usually be remedied with a phone call. Call and confirm with the drs office and insurance company that a dr or facility is in network. Check to make sure that the testing facility (MRI, CT, Bone) won’t do any procedure without prior authorization from the insurance company. You don’t want to end up being billed because the insurance company didn’t give prior authorization.
Good luck with everything.
Jillian, You can weather this storm. You’ve been there and done that. You’re strong and have wonderful people all around you! You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you goodness, joy, health and healing.
Janine in NJ
Another long time follower here. Thank you for sharing your experience thus far with us. It’s a crazy ride ahead, but with Mr. Refashionista, your friends, and all of us here who admire the heck out of you, you’re going to be supported like whoa. Having had bladder cancer, I have a lot of bad words to throw at cancer, but I’m still here, though not like your movie lady who has inspired people.
Let us know what you need. Can’t wait to see the new refashions!
Oh no! My heart genuinely goes out to you and I’m going to be praying/sending good vibes into the universe, for your recovery and for you strength of spirit.
I am so so sorry to hear about this! I was really hoping and praying it would be benign. You already are an inspiration, and I will continue to pray and send good energy your way.
You are an awesome inspiration to me. My thoughts and prayers for you and your journey. I have quietly been following you for years. Be blessed!
So sorry to hear this! Will be thinking of you and your family.
Oh Jillian- what an awful turn of events. I’m keeping you in my thoughts as you navigate this journey. ❤️
My heart goes out to you and your family. I am sorry you are going through this but you have an army of supporters praying for you and sending healing thoughts. Clyde will not triumph!
My thoughts are with you on this journey. Happy you have a great network of support, know that we are all keeping giving you positive vibes through this.
Oh Jillian dearie! We love you and will be praying for your health and strength.
I’m a long-time follower but I’m not sure if I’ve ever posted a comment. I wish you every bit of health, healing, joy, and comfort as you battle this diagnosis during an already impossible time. Your blog brings me happiness and I’m grateful for all the work you do to make it happen. Please take care of yourself as best as you are able.
I am really sorry to hear this. I have been reading your blog for years and find them so thoughtful and inspiring. I am sending you lots of healing love from Canada <3
Hi Gillian I’ve read your blog for ages and I’ve always loved it. I’m so sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself and I really hope you’re on the right side of the statistics. All the best Judy
I’m crying…what can I say? You are my daughter’s age. I know you even though I do not know you. I have followed, mostly quietly, for a very long time. I’ve read every post. I could easily read them again…maybe I will. You are a beautiful and humorous writer. I feel that more beautiful and humorous writing will come. Maybe not tomorrow, but it will unfold. I have been waiting for a post from you. It’s now out there. You won’t be like any story you’ve ever heard or read before. You are going to write your own story. ❤️
Sending positive energy your way! What an honest and raw post. Thank you so much for sharing your heart here.
I have been following your blog for years and feel like I know you! I was brought to tears by your announcement. Your followers will be praying for you and rooting for a miracle recovery. It totally sucks but I am sure in that unflappable style of yours, you will be an inspiration to us all. Keep fighting!
You have already been an inspiration to so many of us and I know you will continue to do so! We admire your sewing skills, creativity, talent, sense of humor, and so much more! I’m sorry that you got the worst news, at the worst time, in the worst year ever, and I wish so much that I could change it. Please know that you are loved and appreciated by me and by all of your followers! Sending you hugs and love and prayers for strength and complete healing!
All the joy, love, inspiration you have sent out over the years is coming back a hundred fold to you. May you feel bolstered by all of us.
Thinking of you during what I can only imagine is an absolutely terrifying time…BUT you’ve got this girl! Fight kicking and screaming…we are all fighting for you too! Will keep you in my thoughts girl!
Cheers from Canada!
I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We are all behind you sending positive energy.
So many of us have gone through terribly hard times, so we know you can get through this. Your many loyal followers are thinking of you and your husband and sending you our prayers. i agree that support groups can help you both to deal more easily. Think about doing that. God bless and keep you.
I hope that the minutes of scrolling it took to get to the end of the comments are a hug filled, positive vibe scaffold for you. Thank you for opening up to all us strangers out here. We will savor each post you’re able to share. Healing healing healing.
Hugs and prayers!!! I love your blog and have always found comfort in your attitude when I was having a hard time. I am sending many, many positive vibes your way and look forward to following your adventures for years to come!!
You breathe life into everything around you. It’s who you are. It is the most natural thing of all for you to be that for yourself. Celebrating you! Sending love!
I have been following you and your refashions for years….and I stumbled upon the story behind it all by complete accident late in the game. I was sorry that you stopped doing refashions, but when you restarted, I was so happy that your life was so happy. And I think I share what everyone else does here–we feel like we know you. I am keeping you in daily prayers. Continue with your strength and fighting spirit.
<3
Jillian.
All my love and support from Argentina.
We love you. Battle this!! Xoxo Eugenia
I love your posts showing us all how to think outside the box! I will be thinking and praying for you
Melissa said everything I was thinking and feeling, so let me just add my ditto. That and Hallmark movies don’t end like Lifetime ones. You’re much more Hallmark. You’ve got this! Hugs from Minnesota.
sending you positive and uplifting thought -m fight on!!
I find so much joy with your post and blog. I will pray for you! I will light candles and remember you when doing so. Stay strong! oxoxoxxo
Sending lots and lots of strength your way, from across the ocean (Netherlands). I´ve been following your blog for ages, and am impressed and touched by the honesty and nuance with which you manage to write about your cancer diagnosis in your latest blog. Keep going, lady! If, at times, you find yourself losing hope, remember that a lot of women from across the world are thinking about you, hoping that you´ll maintain the strength to keep going. Many hugs, Luce.
Jillian, We love you and are supporting you. You have our thoughts, prayers, and shoulders should you ever need us.
Jillian, It is so true that YOU already are an Inspirational Lady! Inspirational Ladies can also have good stories about difficult journeys that change their lives & lead to even happier futures! I can only imagine how uncertain this future looks for you right now. It’s your truth to have real fears, crying, & worries about life’s struggles! In my opinion, sharing my truth in all ways is the best thing I can do. This is a time for you to be surrounded by love & support. You share so much with us all that I feel as a long distant friend… Or at least a BIG FAN! I’ve been wishing you the best & praying for you. I will continue to hope for the best for you day by day. It’s easy to see your beauty inside & the joy you take in your creativity. If the blog and sharing your refashions with us brings happiness through this time, I will be happy for you as well. If there’s breaks & times for you to focus in another direction, God (the Universe, or your Source of Power) bless you. Do what gives you the greatest joy & comfort. My thoughts will continue to hold hope & strength & healing for you. There’s lots of us out here on your Refashionista Cheerleader Team!
We are here for you
Love, best thoughts and light to you all xxx
I am so sorry that your news was not what you (and all of us) were hoping for. I will keep you in my prayers. I believe that your positive spirit will be an asset in this battle that you face. I appreciate you sharing your symptoms in the last post so that other might know what look for. Like your other followers/commenters, I’ll read whatever you post. I admire your strength, honesty, and positivity.
So many people you dont know, but who know you from your wonderful blog posts will be sending you positive energy and heartfelt prayers. I love your quirky sense of humor! And your strength! Hold tight to the friends close to you. And we will hold you close in our thoughts.
YOUR ROCKING THAT SHORT HAIR GIRL! Prayers are with you. Looking forward to your next refashion.
LOVE YOU DIVA AND YOUR BLOG. STAY STRONG GOD WILL BE YOUR STRENGTH – I STAND IN THE GAP OF PRAYER FOR AND WITH YOU.
Prayers/positive thoughts for a success fight. Kick cancer’s ass!
I am so sorry to hear of your news. Prayers for you and your family! You can beat this.
I’ve never written to you, but I have followed you for years. Being scared means you have things worth fighting for. Just know that if you post 1 sentence and 10 links, I’ll read that sentence and click every link to help support you. Prayers are sent!
Sending prayers your way.
I wish I could give you a big hug. You are inspiring and strong. So many people love you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will hope for the very best for you and Mr.
Prayers for you and your family (furry ones included). <3
I don’t even sew. Not a stitch. And I love your blog. Keep it up! I still think you are going to be okay.
Thank you for sharing your news.
The chemo will help you beat it.
Your honesty is inspiration enough.
Big hugs,
Liana
Everything that everyone else has said (positively) and so much more. You have an army of people sending the good vibes your way. Please know that your support extends well beyond those you know. Take care. I mean it.
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I can’t imagine the fear and sadness but it sounds like you’re doing everything you can, choosing to move ahead with gratitude and truth and vulnerability and still doing that which makes you happiest. Sending all the best thoughts as you move forward with your treatment. And let’s be clear: you’re way better dressed that the Lifetime Original Movie lady, for a fraction of the price! Take good care.
You will be in my prayers! I have enjoyed your blogs and refashions so much!
You are such a darling girl and an inspiration to so many. Be good to yourself, take your time, lead with the positive. We’re all behind you!
You are already an inspiration to me. Thank you for always brightening my day. I will be sending you lots of strength and light during this now even crazier & scary time for you. BUG HUG!
very sad to hear that your tumor was malignant. I had a bout of cervical cancer at 31 two years after my husband had been struck and killed by lightning. At the time I had a small child and when the doctor gave me the news I burst into tears terrified that I would leave an orphan. My very kind doctor took my hand and said, “We are going to do everything possible to make sure you are here to watch your son grow up. Please don’t count yourself defeated before you even start the battle.” It was very hard, but I survived and that little boy is now 45 years old with 2 sons of his own. Have faith that you are strong enough to fight this battle and that you have the love & strength of your husband and family to hold you up. We are your online support group & we will keep sending you positive thoughts and love as you get through this. Concentrate on getting better & happier times will come.
Prayers, love and positive thoughts!
2020 Super sucks. I am so thankful for your blog. And I will cry with you. So many clothes have been dyed in my home now and gained a new life (I’ll get to the stack of alterations eventually…). It’s all thanks to you. You are a beautiful person inside and out. I WILL STAY WITH YOU for many years to come and PRAY/SEND GOOD VIBES/SACRIFICE A CANDY BAR OR PINT OF ICE-CREAM for your health and strength. You got this. Big virtual hug!
Know that we’re out here supporting you and cheering you on! I’ve loved reading your blog and your strong, beautiful spirit shines through. You are STRONG!
Oh my dear, sweet Ms Jillian…I am so sorry! You and your precious husband have been (and will continue to be!) in my thoughts and prayers for all these many weeks. I have had similar scares of my own, tho so far all benign, but as the wife of a 5 time cancer survivor, I understand what your husband must be feeling. My husband is going thru radiation treatments now for lung cancer. He’s survived 4 previous different types of cancer via surgeries. This time also with surgery…but it was determined that we needed to move fwd to radiation in addition this time. But you know what…if he can overcome this awful thing, being as he calls himself, an “old dude”…then I have all the faith in the world that beautiful, young you will as well!!! God’s blessings, good health, strength and an abundance of peace to you and you sweet husband! Y’all will continue to fill my prayers…I promise!
Keep the faith! ❤❤❤ Tonna Chavez-Ott
Sending love your way <3
Dear Jillian — I have been reading your blog since you first started, and it has inspired me, YOU have inspired me. YOU are amazing, hilarious, gifted, courageous, and kind. Hearing your news makes my heart hurt for you, but I feel privledged that you deciced to share with us something so depply personal. Your spirit, bruised and battered as it might be, still shines with hope. I hope you do whatever it is you need to do to be healthy, both mentally and physically. Take care of yourself and keep us posted (as you can/want to) so that we can continue to blast you with all the healing and support vibes from across the globe. Huggs from Texas to you and Mr. Refashionista.
I was thinking about and praying for you just the other day. Thank you for updating us. Such challenging news. Hang in there! Continue the fight and I’m grateful you are continuing to refashion and write about it. It will help. Take care!
Jillian, you got this! You are strong, you are creative, you are joyful, and you are loved near and far. Wishing you only the best of news and support from henceforth.
Sending you lots of love and support ❤️. You have no idea how much you have inspired people’s hearts around the world. You are such a sunshine ☀️
This is the first time I comment after following you after many years; I wanted to send you hugs and prayers from El Salvador
I will join so many others in praying for your recovery ❤️
You’ve been that inspirational person already, for all of us! Keep up with the kale and we’ll all keep rooting for you. Thank you for all you’ve posted over the years and I look forward to many more years of learning from you. XOXO
I’m sending much hope and prayers to you and your hubby. You are such an inspiration to me and I look forward to more inspiration for a long time to come. Hugs and love
Sending you prayers and strength to fight this.
I was hoping for different pathology results for you too. But now it’s time to fight this. They have made such strides in treating ovarian cancer since my mother had it over 20 years ago. Try to stay strong and keep blogging, it will keep your mind on other things.
I was so very sorry to read of your upsetting diagnosis, Jillian. Just know that you have a worldwide community of friends and followers who will be supporting you with prayers and positive thoughts. You have brought much joy and laughter into so many lives with your blog. We will all be rooting for you, my dear.
So sorry about the news! I will keep you in my prayers! Nothing is impossible to God, may His will be done!
I love your blog and I have been reading it for many years! Thank you for your inspiration and kindness! Please keep us posted, we love you and care for you!
hugs and love to you and your husband and extended family. you have such a wonderful support group and many people praying for you. Add me into that equation. you can do this! it will be hard, but you got this!!!!
You seem like a very strong person. That is what you concentrate on and it may make the bad times a little easier to deal with. I have been widowed twice and this year I lost my mother and my older brother, so, I do not want to preach but I can tell you that finding things to smile about make the bad things a lot easier. Love and hugs
Thoughts and prayers stay positive ❤️
There are many people who know of you and your blog and believe me they are all rooting for your cure and recovery. You can make it. You have some very hard times coming up with the chemo and then the recovery. Let your grief and anger out, then let it go. Repeat as necessary. You will be all right, you will be better eventually and have many more years with Brian and Douglas.
Thank you for sharing your journey. I have been a fan for many many years and will be following this next step. You are not alone.
You amaze me! Thank you for sharing this with all of us. You (and your refashions) are an inspiration and I’m so selfishly glad that you have unselfishly decided to continue the blog. Looking forward to your posts of progress toward complete healing. You‘ve got this! Your doctors got this! Gods got this! I’ll be keeping you in my prayers for strength and complete recovery. Know you are loved!!
So much hugs and love for you in this rough time.
Jillian, our prayers are with you and your family. My mother in law has had Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma cancer off and on for 15+ years so you can beat this! If you don’t mind me asking, what were your symptoms so maybe you might be able to educate your viewers and even save some lives. Think positive and we’re all praying for you
Sending love and hugs from across the pond in Wales. Very sad to hear your news, thinking of you and here’s to fighting , fighting and fighting more to win!!
Hugs, love, & prayers to you, Brian & your 4 footed family.
Please fight with all your might. We need people like you in this world. I’m sure you are surrounded by love but I’m sending you my love anyways.
You have such a positive outlook on life, and that will definitely help you get through this. I will be praying for you!
Please know my prayers and thoughts are with you. I can’t even imagine how you are feeling, thinking etc. and how that must fluctuate sometimes moment by moment. The one thing I would tell you as you begin this chapter, is to count the wins no matter how small and not the losses. Some days it will feel like your loosing and other day just being able to get out of bed and loving on the cuddle babies is win.
Most of your followers have seen you rock the shaved head, so no surprises there. You will remain beautiful to all that know you.
I will be praying for you nightly. God bless and keep you, my dear.
Jillian, you have so much strength and you are surrounded by people (including your readers) who love you, two gifts that I hope will sustain you. Sending you hugs and love and moments of peace.
I discovered your blog while going through radiation therapy after breast cancer surgery in 2014.
YOU WERE MY BRIGHT SPOT during the hardest time in my life!
Sending bright light to you daily, Jillian.
Oh sweetie, I am crying for you! I will pray for you! You are a tough cookie you can beat this thing! There is power in prayer and positive thoughts. You got this!
Like all your other fans, I am praying and sending positive vibes your way. You are an amazing, vibrant, creative, intelligent, funny woman who I have enjoyed getting to know through your blog.
I know you’ll beat this!! Sending love and healing your way!! Love love love!!!!
Jillian, you have taken so many ugly things over the years and made them beautiful…..your strength, beauty, and support group will help you do the same with this. You are in my prayers.
So sorry to hear this –but you sound positive and will come through. I am in England and a dietitian so work often with those who have cancer. I lov your blog and have been refashioning!
I have always loved your blog, you make the cutest things from grandma dresses. My mom had ovarian cancer and it was hard but she was stronger than we all knew. You are strong too and young and loved. Her one hint is to find a taste you like – after the chemo because your taste changes. The chemo can leave a metallic taste in your mouth and she found out that she loved cinnamon hard candies. I have seen some people using lemon drops. Find a flavor you like to help with the taste and drinks LOTS of fluids to keep your system flushed.
You’ve got this!
siento muchisimo que tengas que darnos tan malas noticias, pero veo con que fortaleza estas enfrentando esta enfermedad que estoy segura que la vas a vencer!, ruego a la Virgen los acompañe en este momento tan dura, que va a ser, seguro dentro de poco, un mal recuerdo, abrazos grandes!
I’m so sorry to hear this Jillian. Do your best to stay positive. We all will be praying for you! Eat healthy foods and reread our encouraging words if you are down. You’ve got this!!
So sorry to hear your news! Crying as I type this. Your blog has always been such a spot of joy for me. Wishing and hoping for you.
I have followed your work for a long time and I am always happy to see your smiling face and sweet personality. It is very brave of you to share this journey your going through and please know there a lots of people rooting for you. I hope you are able to continue to blog no matter what the content. Lots of love and healing positive energy coming your way!
Sending love to you from the UK. I’m so so sorry this is happening to you. We’re all here to support you on your journey ahead. <3
Please reach out to local support groups, as a couple and separately…they are a huge help.
I got the cancer(IDC breast cancer) call almost a year ago. Life will be a crazy whirlwind for a bit. You will cry, stress and make plans for when you aren’t going to be here…who gets what, how you want your funeral.
You will feel pity for yourself, anger and a million other emotions you can’t find words for. Feel them but don’t allow them to control you.
Research, read, join an ovarian cancer page on Facebook.
Never forget, you got this!
Oh Jillian, I am so sorry to hear this. Please know you have a huge circle of love and support from your community of readers, thrifters and stitchers. You are a bright light! xo
Praying for a quick recovery. Sending you good thoughts and virtual hugs. Please know that we are so happy you will continue the blog to let us know how you are doing and to cheer your good news and progress. If you have some refashions, we’ll take those too.
You got this! Every statistic can be looked at positively, focusing on the people who survive. Why not you? Your creativity, humor and of course, style, brighten so many people’s days. I believe you will get past this. There’s so much hope! Sending you love from Boston!
Prayers and love to you – you are already an inspiration! You got this!
We are all praying for your recovery..glad you have a great husband and family…look forward to happier times and more refashions! Take care, rest and heal..
I’ve followed you for years and my heart is heavy. I’ve prayed for you in earnest and I hope you can feel my kindest most loving thoughts for you through these words. You have touched me and my hope is that I can touch you in some way to make this burden a little lighter. Hang onto hope my dear you are stronger & braver than you give yourself credit for.
Girl, you fight like HELL!!! You are loved by so many and have so many people that will be praying for you, me included. Don’t feel that you need to keep things to yourself, we are here for you if you need to get things off your chest.
Stay POSITIVE!!!
Love from Michigan
Jillian I have followed you for years. I love your blog and will always read it. All of your followers are here for you. Sending lots of healing love and light.
All my thoughts go out to you!! I have been following your blog since your year of daily refashions and I am completely hooked. I love your witty style of writing and your eye for refashioning (being a linguist AND a sewer I appreciate both your talents)! Sending you lots of love and positivity!!! <3 <3
Sending lots of love and hugs your way!!!
Thoughts and prayers for a complete recovery for you!
I am so sorry for this news. I am sending healing vibes and love your way. You are a fighter and you are strong. You just kick cancer’s butt (or as my husband would say “hoof it in the croutons!”)
Back in the mid-70s my friend was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer, but she was a fighter and amazingly survived. She just celebrated her 91st birthday in May. She would tell you that the road ahead will be tough, but you can be tougher. Healing thoughts and prayers are with you and Brian!
Your creative mind will get you through-find your happy place and focus on it whenever possible…
You’ll get past this, even if it doesn’t seem possible right now. Invisible covid-free hugs to both of you. Plenty of wonderful life ahead of you, —for example, today, which is all any of us have, right?
And if this comment sounds shitty ’cause u are mad and sad and scared, I’m sorry… but been there, too.
Cancer sucks!, I am so sorry to hear it, I hope and wish for you to come out of this happy and healthy. Be strong if you want to, cry if you want to, be kind to yourself and take good care!
Been there – it sucks. Breast cancer at 37, back in 1995. Still here! Ironic that I just found your blog with your last post, and reading through all the comments, you have a very caring and concerned community here – use that support for strength on days you feel you have none of your own. Whine when you need to – sounds like we all can take it, and be supportive. Hugs!
Oh, Jillian. I am so sorry to hear this, and I can’t add another thing that hasn’t already been said here. You bring so much joy to so many people’s lives – more than you can ever know. Thank you for continuing the blog.
Hang in there. Stay positive if you can, but don’t beat yourself up on those days when you can’t. Lean on Brian (and Douglas and Benson) and all the wonderful friends you have. Ask for help. Everyone wants to help but not all know what they can do. Say “I want to talk about it today” OR “I don’t want to talk about it today”.
And for crying out loud, girl, DON’T WORRY ABOUT HOW YOU LOOK. We don’t love you for that. 🙂
We love you so much! I hate that you have this fight ahead, but we will be with you the whole way. Use the blog for whatever you wish or need. You are going to overcome all the obstacles. Go, fight, win!! #teamjillian
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You do what you need to do and share whatever and whenever you want. Know that you are so very appreciated for your creativity and your great sense of humor and your kindness that shines throughout all of it. Sending a multitude of positive thoughts your way. <3
So so sorry to read this, I’ve followed your blog for years and you seem like someone I’d dearly love to be friends with in real life. I’m sending you all my positive thoughts and love xxx
I’m with you! Cancer in the time of COVID sucks! I was diagnosed in May with breast cancer. I have had 2 surgeries and am waiting on testing to see if chemo will be beneficial. I remind myself every day to be happy this is not the 80’s or 90’s and treatment has come a long way baby!! For me, keeping my normal routine and a sarcastic sense of humor are helping me with the anxiety. Right in the middle of getting my diagnosis my husband bought a new Mustang. Being the sarcastic, sassy person I am I posted on Facebook that I was going to write a COVID country song “I got cancer, he got a Mustang”. Whatever my outcome I’m facing this like a charging bull, and from years of reading your blog; I think you will too! ❤️❤️❤️
My 23 year old son had thyroid cancer that grew really fast, like in 2 months. He had his thyroid and 20 lymph nodes taken out, followed by radiation. Three years later it came back in more lymph nodes. He had another large clump of nodes taken out. It’s been 5 years, and so far so good. So there is hope, even for lymph nodes. Sending prayers and love your way!
It seems to me that only the nicest people get cancer. So be a jerk and beat this thing. But seriously, I hope you recover quickly, amazingly, and you do get that Lifetime movie where the twist is the heroine not only survives but thrives.
Relived to get news from you. Love and prayers being sent have been thinking of you often.
I have followed you for years. You are an amazing woman and an inspiration to me and many, many others. We, along with Brian, stand beside you.
You’re a member of our family now. So let that surround you with all the love and strength you need to fight this thing. Stupid cancer. We’re not ready for you to go ever. Stay strong. We love you.
I am so sorry this has happened to you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
My cousin had ovarian cancer that also spread. She was in her 50s. She had chemo, radiation and has been cancer free for almost 5 years. She married a year and a half ago for the first time. She is happy, healthy and living life. (Her hair is now curly from the chemo!) It is possible to recover from this. Treatment has come a long way.
You got this! You will be in my prayers.
I’m so sorry there wasn’t better news. I will be following your blog as long as you write it – your good energy comes through and I’ve been enjoying your blog for years. I’ll be looking forward to your updates about the cancer and how you’re being strong and fighting it. This really sucks. Focus on fighting it. Thinking of you and sending love from Ottawa, Ontario, Canada.
I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I will keep you in my prayers, fight hard. God Bless you both.
Girl, I hear you. Ovarian cancer runs in my family- maternal side. Scary. But, it really isn’t a death sentence anymore. I highly, highly, highly recommend embracing ‘mindfulness’ and meditation- will help you get through this, and hopefully in a better frame of mind. Lots of love to you!
I am reading you for years, so it feel like I know you a bit. I am so sory to hear about what you are going thru. Surround yourself by friends and loved ones and I hope that they will help you to go thru those hard moments. I wish you all the best and hope that soon all this will be just a bad memory for you and you will be healthy and safe. Lots of hugs for you, lovely lady! 😡
Of course prayers coming to you and your loved ones. I love reading your blogs and watching your creativity shine through. And you always seem so pleasant. Oh how I wish you were kind of a jerk! Nothing bad ever happens to them but YOU are too darn sweet! I’m sure from this you will find a way to refashion hospital gowns or something extra ordinary. I wish I could help contribute something in some way.
Sending you love and healing thoughts. Your emails/blog posts are always a bright spot in my day 🙂
I am truly sorry for the challenge you have been given. Prayers for you and your loved ones.
Sweet One, you are being prayed for. I have followed you for some time and have enjoyed your happy and free spirit. And quietly rejoiced for you when you found your Mr. Please spend time in prayer and let God calm you during this time of uncertainty. Let your nearby friends spoil you and know your far-away friends love and support you.
Sending you all the good vibes, love and prayers. Take care of yourself and keep fighting!!
I’ve been following your blog for years and feel strangely connected to you tho we will never meet. I hold you in my heart and send you showers of blessings and love and goodness and healing. <3
Jillian, I’m so sorry. They do cure cancer every day, and I’m sending you lots of positive thoughts and prayers for a quick move to remission. You know those Inspirational Cancer Ladies cry like babies when they’re alone, right? Many virtual hugs to you.
I can’t tell you how many of my days have been brightened because of you. I always get so excited when I see you’ve posted something. This time it’s me sending healing light and love your way. You’ve been through so much throughout the years that I’ve been following you and you always learn and move on. I’m praying that this time it will be the same. Learn and move on. Best wishes for your complete return to health. And a pat on the back for Mr. Refashionista for standing right beside you.
Sending lots of love!
you don’t need to be in a movie to be inspirational my dear!!! you already are!!! they create those movies to emulate women like you! my good thoughts are with you! and with your Refashionista army behind you, you’ll have enough good vibes to help you kick this is the butt… i know you will be getting a ton of advice about this (i am way older than you), and i’ve seen this unfortunately too many times, i do want to suggest you read about Gerson Therapy since you eat so well and seem to be knowledgeable about green drinks, etc….i was a vegan, and dabbled in raw eating 10 years ago, and the Gerson Therapy is a good read…no supplements, no fads, no purchasing meal plans, no mlm’ing, just straight up high concentration nutritious eating….it;s a good read regardless
sending you much, much love, eva
You are already an inspiration to so many through your awesome refashioning skills.
God bless you as you go through this time an come our happy and healthy on the other side.
Take good care of yourself. I will think of you from Montreal and continue to follow you. Bon courage mon amie. Bisous
Omg!!! I have been following your blog for quite a while now and have never commented before until today. I can’t even being to imagine the pain you are going through xxxx. My advice to you is to laugh at last once a day because laughter is the best medicine to help you stay healthy and positive xxxx
There are no words that make this all better. Just please know that you bring delight and joy to many, with your blog, and you mean a lot to those of us out here who enjoy reading your witty and creative posts. I send you lots of positive energy, and look forward to seeing your spirit shine through in the future posts
You have a community of support through your blog, Jillian. Lean on us; we are here for you. Thinking of you, your family, and your friends.
Oh Jillian, you do what you need to do! Cry as much as you need to, work when you are able, take breaks when you can’t continue, share whatever news (good and bad) that you feel the need to express, and know that you are loved and appreciated so much for your spunk and your creativity and your generousity. I’ll be thinking of you and sending healing and positive vibes for your total recovery. You rock!!
Hang in there!! I been following blogg for a couple of years from Sweden and I am so sorry for you! I will keep you in my mind and send you positive hugs! Fight hard //Susanne
YOU CAN BEAT THIS! I am not overly “bible thumpy” but I’ve been praying for you since your last post. I have followed your blogs for years and love your sense of humor. You got this! I will keep praying. Be angry, be sad, be snippy, be quiet, be hopeful but keep fighting.
Prayers are sent! I know your husband, family and friends will be supportive and help you through this…know that your blog crowd is with you as well!
<3 sending love and prayers
All the best good thoughts and vibes to you for your upcoming battle❤️❤️ My dad was given a 5 year life expectancy with treatment for his melanoma he had chose not to go that route and we have had 9 years with him! He lives one day at a time and just enjoys the small stuff. Which is mainly fishing and camping
You got this girl! Thank you for giving me inspiration that I too can sew. My love of thrift store shopping has definitely been upgraded because of you ❤️
That is a really difficult blow to get, and I know you’re feeling all the feels- the sadness, the fear, the overwhelm, the anger, and the hope. I was given a diagnosis with a 50/50 chance of living more than 4 months. I’m now over 20 years cancer free. Your good starting health, great attitude, and strong support are the things that tip the scales in your favor. Don’t worry about being brave or being inspirational- what you are is exactly right. Just one foot in front of the other ❤️
Sending you STRENGTH and as my son said, So much LOVE it spreads from your heart to all your hurts.
I feel your pain and fright. I had all my guts scooped out in March, for an ovary the size of a softball. I was fortunate, and it was not cancerous, but the scare of not knowing and the thinking what if is exhausting. The first two weeks after the surgery are the worst, then things get better quickly. Be kind to yourself. Let people wait on you (it is hard if you are used to doing your own stuff) and be silly and laugh and do the things that bring you joy.
I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I thought for sure when you announced that you had your tumor removed that it would be benign as well. This truly made me cry (it may be the pregnancy hormones, but I really don’t think so). I have loved your posts and they have always been a bright spot in my day and a bit of comic relief from reality. I am glad that you feel in this moment that you would like to continue this blog. Please know that you are in my thoughts. Get well.
Have prayed – and will pray that you have abundant peace and life!
I found your blog a couple of years ago when I was going through some tough times at home and needing to find a hobby even though I was extremely busy with children and school. I needed to find something to do that I could be proud of and love myself for. I loved your creativity from the get-go and I loved the ease of the projects so I could follow along and try even on a busy schedule. You have made such a difference in my life. Your plot twist is heartbreaking but please don’t lose hope. I wanted to give up many times. Then, I found you (a few others 🙂 ) to guide me. My prayers are for you. Stay strong!
I love your blog, and this is one of my favorite posts. You talk about your situation with so much reality, becoming the much-more-inspirational-than-tv heroine. Thank you for this, for continuing your creations, and being a bright spot in what can be a dark place.
Hey, I can’t wait to see those snazzy head coverings. They’re going to be EPIC.
Now let’s go kick cancer’s ass.
So sorry to hear your news. Stay strong and positive. Will be thinking of you and sending good thoughts.
I was so glad to find your blog a few years ago and have been following religiously. It always makes me happy to see you in my inbox. That being said, I’m sorry to hear about your prognosis. I hope you beat this and are healthy for a lifetime after. If you just wanted to blog about your triumphs and struggles with Cancer, I would still read it. You are an inspiration. You are fabulous. Never forget this.
OMG! I cried when I read your post. I feel like I know you so well that you have become part of my family. You are such a happy and positive person I know you can beat this. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. Stay strong .xx
Girl, you are so brave to share this with the world! You will get so much love and support this way! I’m so sorry you’re having to go thru this, but wish you all the courage and send you all the love you need to get to thru it!
Ok this is the ultimate suck from 2020. I also hoped and thought you would be fine once it came out. I agree to stay off the googles. There’s not much else to say except we all love you and are rooting for you always.
Thank you for sharing, I have been wondering how you were doing. Prayers to you and Mr. Refashionista.
Prayers for you! Your positive attitude will carry you through! I am sure all of us will look forward to your posts.
Jillian, so sorry to hear this. You’re an amazing woman, so inspiring to us all. Sending you healing and strength.
I only know you through your blog, but I am so sad that you must go through this. You are so appreciated by all your readers, and we are all pulling for you. For now, I’ll be reading your blog and looking for the good news that you have licked this thing. Love you!
Sending support, prayers & good thoughts your way.
Bless You and Brian. It’s really brave of you to share this with all of us.
On a brighter note as you are about to start chemo think of all the fun you can have with wigs and turbans!! Sending you lots of love and Higgs from the uk. Xxxxx
Sending so much love your way ❤
I’m so sorry to hear this–I totally understand the fear and the depression. You have a wonderful support network around you, and while the next few months are going to suck hard, you will come out the other side.
I’m impressed that you have chosen to carry on with the blog, but if there are days or weeks, where you’re simply not up to it, we will understand.
Well that just effing sucks? So glad you have the support of your job and loving husband. Your fans are rooting for you!
Ugh, how scary and sad. All I can say is use every resource, shoulder to cry on, and instinct in you. Everyone’s cancer journey is different, so don’t think you should act or feel a certain way. Attack and fight this as only you can. Whatever you bring to your blog, all your cyberfan friends, we’re here for you. xoxo
Virtual hugs (sounds pathetic i’m sorry not to be of a more practical help.) Love to you, you are in our thoughts. We’re here for you. We’ll read your posts and listen to you when you need to vent. Xxxx
I’ve followed you for years and have gotten so much enjoyment and inspiration from all your posts. I’m so sorry to hear of your cancer news. I’m sending you good vibes and positive karma. ⚡️☀️Best wishes!
You go forward w/ the blog, however you feel best. Just know that we will all be here rooting for you. Always. Nothing but positive vibes and good thoughts coming your way.
Words seem insufficient but I’ll try. I’m so sorry this is happening to you. I hope for good health for you with all my heart. I have enjoyed your blog for years and been inspired by you. Your humor has brightened many a day of mine. Hopefully knowing that you have many friends thinking of you in the blog sphere will bring you a bit of comfort. Go get em! Show that [email protected]#ch who’s boss
I am so very sorry. I was just diagnosed with Waldenstrom Macroglobunemia. It’s rare form of non Hodgkins lymphoma. It “ can not be cured”. I dont listen. My God is in control.
Wow2020 just keeps hitting on us! I want to get better! I plan on beating this! I am 61 but have a lot of life left in me.
You have more! You CAN beat this! You MUST believe that. You are young and healthy. You are smart and you are beautiful! You CAN do this. I know you can. Be patient. Listen. Leave no stone unturned. Keep doing the healthy stuff and you will win. I know you will! Hugs and love to you both.
I’m so sorry this has happened to you. No love reading your blog for inspiration and your friendly, cute smile. Beat wishes on the journey ahead
Much love, many prayers.